Feb 07, 2005 10:30
sometimes i wonder why god put me on this planet. apparently it wasnt to do much of anything good, but maybe it was to show a living evil. i seem to dissapoint and mislead so many people, and i keep telling myself that im right and admitting in my head that im wrong, absolutely wrong. the lines of justice of crossed paths again. these mixed emotions.... ah i just really want to know my purpose. if only... things could stay OKAY for a little longer. whas it like to be okay? i guess i know but it comes and goes faster than a train from new jersey to new yourk city. i used to know a happy place for each person, but apparently im too caught up in not breaking down myself to help much at all. im sorry....
on a brighter note, my room is clean. i thought my mom would tell me i could go to nicole's if i took care of that....apparently not, but i tried. i love sleepovers on weekdays ahhhh im so dissapointed! my grades are kicking me in the ass too...here i go again about my problems. i really try not to get into the specifics or even touch on some things when i type in here because theyre too much...or too little sometimes. i just need to vent a little without much information
-being nice and sounding pissed off-
ill be alone forever...excep gary will always be here, boy oh boy what a cat.
armondo and stefano from elle girl are some pretty hot italians, its all good suff.
and finally, goodnight