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i just realized how hateful i am. i am starting to be scared to be anything for fear or becoming something i don't like. i don't want to be pretentious. i dont want to be repetitive. i dont want to be normal. i dont want to be strange. i dont want to try too hard. i dont want to not try at all. i dont want to be a drunk. i dont want to be expected. i almost want to be a recluse but then i remember i've hated on people that do that, and i don't want to be a hypocrite. it's not even someone i'm trying to prove these things to. just myself i guess. battles within. but i can't forget to remember who i am, even if i dont know what i want or who i am. i just can't forget myself. and i need to stop hating so many things. love more things. that will be my resolution. love everything.