1st entry
ive never expressed myself on my live journal until today, so here goes nothing. my girlfriend kim fights with me non stop. sometimes she has the right like when i came over her house stoned. but she over reacts and calls me a drug addict. last night my friend laura called at like mid night and kim who is sick was sleeping in my room i answered it and walked out of the room not to disturb her and she called me a piece of s*** cause she thought i was hiding some thing. sorry for trying to be polite. some are small things not even worth mentioning. i love the hell out of her and she tries pushing me away cause she is afraid of getting hurt. i can understand that. i messed up in the relationship by kissing another girl and then lying about it, one dumb action straight into another, in which she gave me another chance. then she invaded my space by copying numbers off my phone and then calling one thinking it was that girl. so i locked my phone and changed my password. all i wanted is for an apology for that and i was willing to stop with the lockdown on the phone, but she didnt even feel remorseful about it. when i mess up even if i didnt know i was i apologize and try to make amends, but in her eyes she a saint in this relationship and can do no wrong. the one thing she does feel bad about is trying to change me. i do need some change in my life, but i doesnt happen over night. but i thank her for all her help in my journey to quit smoking. thank you baby. she all so wants me to be more like i was when she met me, well stop trying so hard to change me. i cant be happy go lucky with all this arguing. i unlocked the phone today in hopes that she might gain a little more trust in me and this relationship.