i need a pick me up bad

[do_it_for_jonny]

2009 is almost as bad as 2005
emotionally
being in this apartment by myself has really fucked with my head
its lonely
but like im hallucinating
having weird dreams about my dad stabbing me
financially
i dont know what the hell im going to do
i miss everybody
i miss myself
its kinda scary

its like someone up there is just saying i dare you