That Worships The Tomb Of Our Forlorn Love
I've come to the conclusion that I'm a total screw up when it comes to relationships.
And Im not joking either.
In any other thing, I'm great at. I am a poet, a writer, a Musician. I can make anyone laugh, and I can turn the most boringest thing into an adventure.
But I just can't seem to make my own relatiosnhips worl.
*sigh*
Feel It Turning You Heart Into Stone
Feel It Piercing Your Corageous Soul
Beyond Now- Redemption
No Ones Gonna Catch You When You Fall
*sigh*
I expect to much, I think.
With Scott, I didn't want to rush things. I had literally just split with my fiance, and he was the reason. She knew I liked him a little, and I was open with her, but she didn't trust me. He liked me, so when me and Kayla broke up, me and him got together. But he decided to go back to his dad's house.
It's not like I care that he went back to his dad's house. I care that the reason he went back was becuase of Breana, his ex. He told me he was over her. Then the first chance he gets he goes running back to her and her new boyfriend.
It makes me wonder...What's wrong with me?
And then Kayla...
I wouldn't mind getting back together with her, but we hurt each other to much. I broke her heart by breaking up with her; She hurt me by not trusting me. I talked to her, and she's afraid of hurting me again too.
*sigh*
And She Bleeds For A Love,
Forver Gone
Drunk On Shadows, Lost In A Lie
Killing Ourselves A Kiss At A Time
Devils Dance While Angels Smile
Drunk On Shadows, Lost In A Lie
I know it was way to soon for me and Scott to get together when we did. I broke up with Kayla Thurday night, asked Scott out the next day at lunch. Wasn't even 24 hours.
Does that make me a bad person?
It was homecoming week. The pic, my display pic, I took it the morning I asked him out. Our first date was the game that night. I remember it perfectly. Our first kiss was at the top of the bleachers....
And I remeber Kayla coming up, getting pissed. Shes on flag team, so she had to be there. It was halftime. She came up to talk to me. But me and Scott were talking with Fritter and Apple (her cousin). Kayla said something, and I got pissed and stormed down the bleachers. Scott stayed at the top of the bleachers, and I cried.
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's some much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
And then he left....
For his ex girlfriend.....
And I never got to say goodbye. Literally. I think the last thing I said to him was I'll talk to you Monday." and hugged him.
I was sick the last three days of school, and his plane left the morning of the the last day.
this is the last pic we took together.
*sigh*
Life sucks sometimes....
I had carved his initials in my ankle, but it faded cuz i didnt put the sharpie on it like i was suppose to.
Saving my
soul no more
And i know where i belong
Away from your gods
That heal all wounds and light this endless dark
That shine
Well..Im out. Im gonna go mess around with my guitar....or better yet, write then go to bed.
Night Night
Guten Abend
Pennsylvania
We are "cop rock" we are screech
We are z. cavaricci
We are laser removed
Tasmanian devil tattoos
We are third string we are puck
We are special people's club
We are the half shirts with
Irreverent spring break top ten lists
We are munsoned we are squat
We are flashing twelve o'clock
We are spread out butt cheeks
Pulled apart so just the air leaks
We are "ishtar" we are tab
We are no right turn on red
We are the moustaches
The beatles grew when they dropped acid
You are the heart dotting "i"
In the word "apologize"
Scribbled drunk on a postcard
Sent from somewhere volcanoes are
I am the heart with no name
Airbrushed on the license plate
Of a subaru that was
Registered in pennsylvania
We are zima we are barf
We are cinderblock yard art
We are baldwin brothers
Not the good one but the others
We are amway we are shemp
We are sir david of brent
We are the queef after
A porn star breaks the gang bang record
You are the heart dotting "i"
In the word "apologize"
Scribbled drunk on a postcard
Sent from somewhere volcanoes are
I am the heart with no name
Airbrushed on the license plate
Of a subaru that was
Registered in pennsylvania
Do you even know what a wawa is girl?
Do you even know what a wawa is?
Do you even know what a wawa is girl?
Do you even know what a wawa is?
I'm in a state of p fuckin' a
And Im not joking either.
In any other thing, I'm great at. I am a poet, a writer, a Musician. I can make anyone laugh, and I can turn the most boringest thing into an adventure.
But I just can't seem to make my own relatiosnhips worl.
*sigh*
Feel It Turning You Heart Into Stone
Feel It Piercing Your Corageous Soul
Beyond Now- Redemption
No Ones Gonna Catch You When You Fall
*sigh*
I expect to much, I think.
With Scott, I didn't want to rush things. I had literally just split with my fiance, and he was the reason. She knew I liked him a little, and I was open with her, but she didn't trust me. He liked me, so when me and Kayla broke up, me and him got together. But he decided to go back to his dad's house.
It's not like I care that he went back to his dad's house. I care that the reason he went back was becuase of Breana, his ex. He told me he was over her. Then the first chance he gets he goes running back to her and her new boyfriend.
It makes me wonder...What's wrong with me?
And then Kayla...
I wouldn't mind getting back together with her, but we hurt each other to much. I broke her heart by breaking up with her; She hurt me by not trusting me. I talked to her, and she's afraid of hurting me again too.
*sigh*
And She Bleeds For A Love,
Forver Gone
Drunk On Shadows, Lost In A Lie
Killing Ourselves A Kiss At A Time
Devils Dance While Angels Smile
Drunk On Shadows, Lost In A Lie
I know it was way to soon for me and Scott to get together when we did. I broke up with Kayla Thurday night, asked Scott out the next day at lunch. Wasn't even 24 hours.
Does that make me a bad person?
It was homecoming week. The pic, my display pic, I took it the morning I asked him out. Our first date was the game that night. I remember it perfectly. Our first kiss was at the top of the bleachers....
And I remeber Kayla coming up, getting pissed. Shes on flag team, so she had to be there. It was halftime. She came up to talk to me. But me and Scott were talking with Fritter and Apple (her cousin). Kayla said something, and I got pissed and stormed down the bleachers. Scott stayed at the top of the bleachers, and I cried.
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's some much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
And then he left....
For his ex girlfriend.....
And I never got to say goodbye. Literally. I think the last thing I said to him was I'll talk to you Monday." and hugged him.
I was sick the last three days of school, and his plane left the morning of the the last day.
this is the last pic we took together.
*sigh*
Life sucks sometimes....
I had carved his initials in my ankle, but it faded cuz i didnt put the sharpie on it like i was suppose to.
Saving my
soul no more
And i know where i belong
Away from your gods
That heal all wounds and light this endless dark
That shine
Well..Im out. Im gonna go mess around with my guitar....or better yet, write then go to bed.
Night Night
Guten Abend
Pennsylvania
We are "cop rock" we are screech
We are z. cavaricci
We are laser removed
Tasmanian devil tattoos
We are third string we are puck
We are special people's club
We are the half shirts with
Irreverent spring break top ten lists
We are munsoned we are squat
We are flashing twelve o'clock
We are spread out butt cheeks
Pulled apart so just the air leaks
We are "ishtar" we are tab
We are no right turn on red
We are the moustaches
The beatles grew when they dropped acid
You are the heart dotting "i"
In the word "apologize"
Scribbled drunk on a postcard
Sent from somewhere volcanoes are
I am the heart with no name
Airbrushed on the license plate
Of a subaru that was
Registered in pennsylvania
We are zima we are barf
We are cinderblock yard art
We are baldwin brothers
Not the good one but the others
We are amway we are shemp
We are sir david of brent
We are the queef after
A porn star breaks the gang bang record
You are the heart dotting "i"
In the word "apologize"
Scribbled drunk on a postcard
Sent from somewhere volcanoes are
I am the heart with no name
Airbrushed on the license plate
Of a subaru that was
Registered in pennsylvania
Do you even know what a wawa is girl?
Do you even know what a wawa is?
Do you even know what a wawa is girl?
Do you even know what a wawa is?
I'm in a state of p fuckin' a