i don't know how to react
so right now i'm at mott for a art day camp and were working on the computer so i am able to write this. so i just found out that my grandma died, my dad's mom. she's the one who we all expected to die soon and the ones who lived here for a month and the one who had alziehmers. i was kindof close to her when i was really little but not even that much then. i never got to see her that much either. i didn't expect her to die so soon, i thought she'd always be the grandma that was the one you expected to die the next day and live forever. to be truthful the only one closest to me that has ever died was my dog and i cried for so long when that happened. with my grandma dieing it's weird, i don't know how to react, i haven't shown any emotion of sadness about it, i have only one grandma now, it's such a weird thing to say. i was always so proud that i had all my grandparents now one is gone and i expect my grandpa won't last much longer. my mom said it was up to me if me and sarah went to the funeral but i really don't know, i've never ever been to a funeral, and i barely know my relatives. i haven't seen my aunts or cousin since i was about 5, maybe younger. i'm really not sure what going on, i'm confused. not one clue