i wonder how long i can stretch it all out for...
I'm not quite sure how I'm going to handle tomorrow yet..
I guess I'll just have to try and keep myself busy so my brain doesn't have the chance to catch up with what has been happening these past couple of days. I don't really want my heart to catch up either...
I've been pretty good with the crying thing so far. no public breakdowns yet. can't say much for the drives home alone though. but we shall see what tomorrow brings. I'm pretty sure I'll be getting it all out in the open. and it's really weird because the one person I expected to be strong about all this... isn't. its just so... weird....
there's also still a few things that I need to straighten out... and I don't know if I can deal with them.
I also wish I wasn't such a fuckin pussy.
but my theory is that since we are all so visibly distraught over being parted for pretty much only a month, shouldn't it be safe to say that we are going to stay friends for a very long time? If we are this close now... just picture it next summer. by then we'll have a movie, nevermind a slideshow haha. it's not going to make tomorrow any easier, but it makes me so happy to know that I have such a strong group to fall back on.
I'm just gonna keep on sayin it. I love you all... :)
I guess I'll just have to try and keep myself busy so my brain doesn't have the chance to catch up with what has been happening these past couple of days. I don't really want my heart to catch up either...
I've been pretty good with the crying thing so far. no public breakdowns yet. can't say much for the drives home alone though. but we shall see what tomorrow brings. I'm pretty sure I'll be getting it all out in the open. and it's really weird because the one person I expected to be strong about all this... isn't. its just so... weird....
there's also still a few things that I need to straighten out... and I don't know if I can deal with them.
I also wish I wasn't such a fuckin pussy.
but my theory is that since we are all so visibly distraught over being parted for pretty much only a month, shouldn't it be safe to say that we are going to stay friends for a very long time? If we are this close now... just picture it next summer. by then we'll have a movie, nevermind a slideshow haha. it's not going to make tomorrow any easier, but it makes me so happy to know that I have such a strong group to fall back on.
I'm just gonna keep on sayin it. I love you all... :)