Standing
You know the feeling when you're falling and you adore a certain somebody yet you don't know where you are standing with them. Things change in a split second and your just left there... standing...feeling completely lost. I like to know where I'm standing with people I'm close to family, friends and also a certain somebody in their lives. I don't know if it's my over analyzations on things but seriously its always there. It really gets to me. Not knowing whats going on, where situations are going or how they preceive me.
I remember times in my own life when ignorance was bliss... a lot of people see me as the one that smiles through the bad times and wears rose coloured glasses... that is only the touch upon the surface! When I start showing the more deeper and more complex side of me people are surprised. I dont even know how deep I am... just an abyss really... I keep going further and further trying to reveal who this person that I call me. Im a real insecure person when it comes to most issues in my life, I can't help it and that is why I need reassurance to where I'm standing in peoples lives. Well not just anybody but by people I'm close to but especially to someone I feel quite a bit for... Its just the way I am.
Anyways I'm going to go do something... I dont know probably listen to music...
Currently listening to: Find Love - Enigma
Maggie Without The M
I remember times in my own life when ignorance was bliss... a lot of people see me as the one that smiles through the bad times and wears rose coloured glasses... that is only the touch upon the surface! When I start showing the more deeper and more complex side of me people are surprised. I dont even know how deep I am... just an abyss really... I keep going further and further trying to reveal who this person that I call me. Im a real insecure person when it comes to most issues in my life, I can't help it and that is why I need reassurance to where I'm standing in peoples lives. Well not just anybody but by people I'm close to but especially to someone I feel quite a bit for... Its just the way I am.
Anyways I'm going to go do something... I dont know probably listen to music...
Currently listening to: Find Love - Enigma
Maggie Without The M