First order of business...
It's time for me to address a few things that have been going on. I haven't updated in awhile or as regularly as I used to, but I feel the need to clarify what's going on with me.
First things first: For those of you who are concerned with my stability or mental state, I'm fine. I'm as stable as I've been in awhile. Im not in despair or a "big mess of hard emotions". In fact, I'm quite the opposite. I'm enjoying my life and the things in it.
I've never felt that my friends didn't care about me, nor have I ever needed one person to single-handedly change my perspective on life.
I have not crumbled at all, and if I ever did it would not be because of a relationship I've had in the past. I have way more to my life than that.
As far as my last 2 journal entries being as depressing as they are, they are that way for very big reasons. The death of my grandfather took me by surprise and it really affected me because I was close to him. I was grieving and my journal was a way for me to vent. I thought I made that pretty plain, but I guess not.
Second of all, I'm making this entry because Andrea recently had some things to say about me in her livejournal. I decided to clarify these things and tell it how it really is.
Andrea, I appreciate your concern about me. I appreciate your prayers. I appreciate what we had and the time we spent together. I also appreciate that you were a part of my life and that you did help me to see things a little differently than I did before.
What I certainly DO NOT appreciate is you making an entry about me in your livejournal instead of talking to me personally. I also do not appreciate your assumption that you had anything to do with my mental state at the time of those entries, as if my grandfather's death was not enough to bring me down. I do not appreciate your assumption that no one else cares about me, and that you've allowed something tragic to happen.
You haven't caused any of the feelings I expressed in those entries, nor are you the cause of any regret or misgivings I have currently. You can talk to me anytime you want. I havent changed my number or my sn. If you're TRULY concerned about me, then talk to me personally instead of posting your false guilt on your livejournal that doesnt even have me on its friends list.
First things first: For those of you who are concerned with my stability or mental state, I'm fine. I'm as stable as I've been in awhile. Im not in despair or a "big mess of hard emotions". In fact, I'm quite the opposite. I'm enjoying my life and the things in it.
I've never felt that my friends didn't care about me, nor have I ever needed one person to single-handedly change my perspective on life.
I have not crumbled at all, and if I ever did it would not be because of a relationship I've had in the past. I have way more to my life than that.
As far as my last 2 journal entries being as depressing as they are, they are that way for very big reasons. The death of my grandfather took me by surprise and it really affected me because I was close to him. I was grieving and my journal was a way for me to vent. I thought I made that pretty plain, but I guess not.
Second of all, I'm making this entry because Andrea recently had some things to say about me in her livejournal. I decided to clarify these things and tell it how it really is.
Andrea, I appreciate your concern about me. I appreciate your prayers. I appreciate what we had and the time we spent together. I also appreciate that you were a part of my life and that you did help me to see things a little differently than I did before.
What I certainly DO NOT appreciate is you making an entry about me in your livejournal instead of talking to me personally. I also do not appreciate your assumption that you had anything to do with my mental state at the time of those entries, as if my grandfather's death was not enough to bring me down. I do not appreciate your assumption that no one else cares about me, and that you've allowed something tragic to happen.
You haven't caused any of the feelings I expressed in those entries, nor are you the cause of any regret or misgivings I have currently. You can talk to me anytime you want. I havent changed my number or my sn. If you're TRULY concerned about me, then talk to me personally instead of posting your false guilt on your livejournal that doesnt even have me on its friends list.