.so real.
chicago o'hare airport.2001. a chance meeting, after all these years, we said goodbye for what we thought would be the last time...never good lovers, never quite just friends, so we ended the effort of trying to put up with each other...to figure out what we were...with a forced smile on both of our faces, a few tears, some great laughs ...over a chance cup of coffee. it was our last chance. a gentle goodbye was had, i still remember the wave you gave me as you boarded a plane for one place and i bound for another. we never came there as lovers.
somewhere around 2003 when everything else in my world had fallen apart, when i was sure that i had nothing else to hang on to. when i was certain that everything else had collapsed. when i knew in fact that i was in a spin, i took a chance and picked up the phone...
your number was still etched in my muscle memory, after all those years. california bound is what you were...and i was still stuck. we struck up a conversation about our pasts together and where we had been since. your laughter was still fresh in my memories but you still slipped out of my every day.
i met this girl...that i thought was my world and was sure that all my dreams would come true. i couldnt wait to call you and exclaim my love. you answered the phone and said you were happy for me.
you and i meandered through our lives...never really skipping a beat, but we still weren't there...in each others lives...
2005, after she and i had gotten closer. i fell apart. summer '06 was a disaster, and i called you secretly...never told a soul.
by november, it was over.
the following may, i moved on...and it was beautiful until halloween.
i dated several people, loving them each in their own way. craving the security of their touch. it was fun while they lasted. but eventually they all fell through.
i always secretly knew i craved you.
feb. '09, you and i began...sparks.
your red skirt.
airplane trips...disguised as business work.
your smiling eyes.
my safe place
my safe place
my safe place
and now, i can't wait to see where it goes, as we grow together...
eighteen months later. listening to buckley and radiohead. talking politics while sharing space on the couch. noshing on strawberries and coffee for breakfast at our favorite diner. we are no longer the confused little kids we once were. we are grown adults, ready to take the plunge...
...into love with all the sparks 'a'flyin'...
somewhere around 2003 when everything else in my world had fallen apart, when i was sure that i had nothing else to hang on to. when i was certain that everything else had collapsed. when i knew in fact that i was in a spin, i took a chance and picked up the phone...
your number was still etched in my muscle memory, after all those years. california bound is what you were...and i was still stuck. we struck up a conversation about our pasts together and where we had been since. your laughter was still fresh in my memories but you still slipped out of my every day.
i met this girl...that i thought was my world and was sure that all my dreams would come true. i couldnt wait to call you and exclaim my love. you answered the phone and said you were happy for me.
you and i meandered through our lives...never really skipping a beat, but we still weren't there...in each others lives...
2005, after she and i had gotten closer. i fell apart. summer '06 was a disaster, and i called you secretly...never told a soul.
by november, it was over.
the following may, i moved on...and it was beautiful until halloween.
i dated several people, loving them each in their own way. craving the security of their touch. it was fun while they lasted. but eventually they all fell through.
i always secretly knew i craved you.
feb. '09, you and i began...sparks.
your red skirt.
airplane trips...disguised as business work.
your smiling eyes.
my safe place
my safe place
my safe place
and now, i can't wait to see where it goes, as we grow together...
eighteen months later. listening to buckley and radiohead. talking politics while sharing space on the couch. noshing on strawberries and coffee for breakfast at our favorite diner. we are no longer the confused little kids we once were. we are grown adults, ready to take the plunge...
...into love with all the sparks 'a'flyin'...