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Do you ever get this nagging feeling that you are making the wrong choice? Maybe it's because you're thinking too much or maybe it's because you try and logistically figure everything out. But sometimes you ever get this feeling that you're not doing what you should be doing? For me, it's like I see my life the way I want it to be. I see the feelings I want to have and if things seem to pattern themselves in a different way... I get all tangled up. Once I'm in that entanglement, its kinda like being underwater. You can see the surface and the sun shining but something is just keeping you down below. Something is causing you to hang on to what's beneath everything else. It feels like the wrong choice but something deep inside is saying maybe its not. But, all of that shifting in your heart and in your mind makes things feel worse than if you were drowning. Which way to go is not clear and makes everything around you seem fuzzy. Yet, the upside to all of this confusion is that things are made to work out for the good. Therefore, getting all tangled up in the should I's really isn't going to get me a very far distance. Sometimes, when these nagging feelings grapple my heart, its easier and more fufilling to just lift my head above the water and breathe...Sure, I can try and plan out the way things should be, but truly I won't know what is meant to be unless I relax and take a breath of fresh air.