I usually hate song lyric posts....
So I'll break this up with cryptic references to my current situation...
Takes four days to get to like me
But two to wanna leave
But the part that really gets me
Are all the moments in between
Now I lie to get a little
And laugh at every little thing
She's high on information
But now I'm low on self-esteem
So, yea, I'm in this part right now. I'm a pretty easy guy to like when you first get to know me, but I'm only a little worried that this easy-to-like starts to go away... but, then again, that perception is mainly based on high-school Marcus, so perhaps it's not an issue.
So I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself
Although myself will wonder why
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself this time
I'm a hundred kinds of crazy
But I only wanna find
One sweet little angel
Who's gonna let me speak my mind
All I ever do these days
Is dumb my process down
She's making her decision
But now I'm losing all my ground
Very true. I will never date someone that I cannot be myself around (again.) I just want to be Marcus, flawed and gifted, all of me. It's nice to be able to not worry about how my "significant other" would respond to any particular course of action. I'm also a very different person now. Before my last big relationship, I defined myself based on other people. And while I still do this--I suppose everyone does, I have definitely moved to a point in my life where I dont --need-- anyone but myself. That's pretty damn cool.
So I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself
Although myself will wonder why
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself this time
Easy does it now
Just keep your damn mouth shut
She thinks you're hot already
Don't go and press your luck
No news is good news coming
You gotta wait to find
Don't go and blow it
You do every single time
You might have noticed that last verse was in bold. Why, you inquire, would Marcus initiate such a radical change, after a post-long convention of formatting that had been largely successful? Perhaps it was to give emphasis to a verse that I found particularly applicable? Perhaps...
My stupid mouth (yea, I know, cheap JM reference,) gets me in trouble a lot. I just talk and talk and talk because I'm so nervous, and I end up saying a lot more than I really ought to... and it can ruin things for me. I'm not quite the Fonz, over here. I'm a lot closer to Richie... cute but completely clueless with the ladies. I know how to be sweet, I'm really good at being a nice guy, but "nice guys finish last" isn't just an empty saying, it's the certain truth. This time, tho, it feels like being nice (being myself) might just work. My other tragic flaw is not being able to deal with uncertainty. Usually, I am really bad at restraining myself from calling a love interest far too many times in a day, with requisite text messages. Now, though, I seem to be handling myself a lot better. Part of it might be that I have a better network of friends now, so it's not nearly as difficult to take my mind off of someone, if I need/want to.
Oh I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself
Although myself will wonder why
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself this time
you know, you know
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself
Although myself will wonder why
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself this time
So, "just be yourself" turned out to be a pretty applicable cliche in this case... or at least I hope it will.
Much love to all, maybe I'll start posting a little more.
Takes four days to get to like me
But two to wanna leave
But the part that really gets me
Are all the moments in between
Now I lie to get a little
And laugh at every little thing
She's high on information
But now I'm low on self-esteem
So, yea, I'm in this part right now. I'm a pretty easy guy to like when you first get to know me, but I'm only a little worried that this easy-to-like starts to go away... but, then again, that perception is mainly based on high-school Marcus, so perhaps it's not an issue.
So I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself
Although myself will wonder why
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself this time
I'm a hundred kinds of crazy
But I only wanna find
One sweet little angel
Who's gonna let me speak my mind
All I ever do these days
Is dumb my process down
She's making her decision
But now I'm losing all my ground
Very true. I will never date someone that I cannot be myself around (again.) I just want to be Marcus, flawed and gifted, all of me. It's nice to be able to not worry about how my "significant other" would respond to any particular course of action. I'm also a very different person now. Before my last big relationship, I defined myself based on other people. And while I still do this--I suppose everyone does, I have definitely moved to a point in my life where I dont --need-- anyone but myself. That's pretty damn cool.
So I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself
Although myself will wonder why
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself this time
Easy does it now
Just keep your damn mouth shut
She thinks you're hot already
Don't go and press your luck
No news is good news coming
You gotta wait to find
Don't go and blow it
You do every single time
You might have noticed that last verse was in bold. Why, you inquire, would Marcus initiate such a radical change, after a post-long convention of formatting that had been largely successful? Perhaps it was to give emphasis to a verse that I found particularly applicable? Perhaps...
My stupid mouth (yea, I know, cheap JM reference,) gets me in trouble a lot. I just talk and talk and talk because I'm so nervous, and I end up saying a lot more than I really ought to... and it can ruin things for me. I'm not quite the Fonz, over here. I'm a lot closer to Richie... cute but completely clueless with the ladies. I know how to be sweet, I'm really good at being a nice guy, but "nice guys finish last" isn't just an empty saying, it's the certain truth. This time, tho, it feels like being nice (being myself) might just work. My other tragic flaw is not being able to deal with uncertainty. Usually, I am really bad at restraining myself from calling a love interest far too many times in a day, with requisite text messages. Now, though, I seem to be handling myself a lot better. Part of it might be that I have a better network of friends now, so it's not nearly as difficult to take my mind off of someone, if I need/want to.
Oh I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself
Although myself will wonder why
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself this time
you know, you know
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself
Although myself will wonder why
I'm gonna try (try)
I'm gonna try (try)
Gonna try to be myself this time
So, "just be yourself" turned out to be a pretty applicable cliche in this case... or at least I hope it will.
Much love to all, maybe I'll start posting a little more.