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Clearly, I'm not at Music History right now. I'm so over it.
I just...I don't know. I've been having a REALLY hard time lately with Jilian. It's been a little over 2 months now, and it's like it's hitting me over the head. Why two months? I'm not sure, but it certainly sucks a lot. I feel like it's sucking life out of me. I really can't explain it. I just miss her so much. I want her to come back so badly. I know she won't, and there's really no point in wishing that, but I can't help it. I've been listening to the CD she and Aaron made almost non stop the past few days. I'm so glad they made that. I can either listen to it and let myself cry, or sing along and be happy.
I feel like all I want to do is sit in my room, go tanning, hang out with friends...nothing else really seems important right now. Sometimes you just need to do things that make YOU happy, and let that be okay...even if it means not going to class. Whatever. It's not like I'm going to get a bad grade in music history, and I'll do fine in earth resources. I'll go tomorrow, but today, I'm taking the morning for myself. Sometimes there are more important things than getting up and going to class...like sanity and such.
I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I sometimes worry that people will be like well, it's been two months now, she should be moving on, be okay... You konw what I say to those people? Well, it's not nice. haha. You try it, okay? I'm doing the best I can.
I just...I don't know. I've been having a REALLY hard time lately with Jilian. It's been a little over 2 months now, and it's like it's hitting me over the head. Why two months? I'm not sure, but it certainly sucks a lot. I feel like it's sucking life out of me. I really can't explain it. I just miss her so much. I want her to come back so badly. I know she won't, and there's really no point in wishing that, but I can't help it. I've been listening to the CD she and Aaron made almost non stop the past few days. I'm so glad they made that. I can either listen to it and let myself cry, or sing along and be happy.
I feel like all I want to do is sit in my room, go tanning, hang out with friends...nothing else really seems important right now. Sometimes you just need to do things that make YOU happy, and let that be okay...even if it means not going to class. Whatever. It's not like I'm going to get a bad grade in music history, and I'll do fine in earth resources. I'll go tomorrow, but today, I'm taking the morning for myself. Sometimes there are more important things than getting up and going to class...like sanity and such.
I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her. I sometimes worry that people will be like well, it's been two months now, she should be moving on, be okay... You konw what I say to those people? Well, it's not nice. haha. You try it, okay? I'm doing the best I can.