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I just need to let some things out that have been bugging me for the past couple of days and yes it is about a boy, what do you expect. So for basically two years I have been fooling around with this boy. I have misread our situations many a time and have been hurt by it. But he doesn't help b/c he leads me on a lot. Last year I wanted us to be in a relationship together, but he didn't like me like that. But this year our fooling around became more serious and lately I don't know what is going on. About a month ago he broke up with his girlfriend and we started up again and I have been told that he does like me and that he might want a relationship with me. Well Saturday I was at a wedding that he was a groomsmen in. I was a little nervous that he wouldn't talk to me much, but in fact he was everything I wanted him to be that night. He asked me to dance the to the first slow song that came on. Yeah there was alcohol involved that night, but it wasn't like he was wasted. Are whole grouped danced together that night, but he did little things that basically confused me like always. I was the one girl he basically danced with, except for when he was dancing with the bride but even then he looked at me and winked what the fuck was that about. Later when we went outside he offered me his tux jacket. Then later he kissed me for the first time in public when it wasn't just him and I. It felt like we were dating. I don't like feeling that special when I basically know it is just for that night and when the next morning comes we are strangers again. I need some help. B/c in my naive mind I feel like if I keep hanging out with him that maybe it will turn into something more, but at the same time it is hard to keep doing this not knowing whats going on. Do I ask him if this is going to lead to anything or well that just scare him away. People say if I'm having fun then don't worry about it, but thats the thing, I have fun that night, but whenever I see him thats all I think about and its like I can't be around him. So I don't think I can keep this up with this is all there is. Someone please help me, b/c I'm stuck.