Why does life have to be so confusing?
This sucks. I come back home this weekend b/c Sarah and Becca wanted me to. Well I come here and I feel sucked into more drama. First I get here Thursday night and don't even call my mom not thinking she would be mad about it, long behold she was. I feel bad b/c I did not spend much time with her over spring break and I need to make time for her b/c she thinks that all I do is use her for money which is soo not true, I love my mom sooo much she is the one person who has always been there for me and I wished she knew it, it just hurts when im around her sometimes b/c things I see other moms do I want her to but I know she can't...like coming down and visiting me at school, being happy for me getting into my dream college instead of saying "how arre you going to pay for that". I hate that she always has to think of the financial aspect I wish that she didn't have to.
Now onto boy drama. Ok well I like Parker, but I think all he wants to be is friends which im fine with, but Sarah thinks b/c I want to hang out with him and get to know him better that my motives aare that I am trying to go for him and thats not what they are I just have fun with him and like being around him a lot, its not something that im pushing which is weird b/c I usually have a tendency to do that. It sucks that she said that she would deal if something happened and than I think she realized that him and I were clicking and was like michelle we should promise that we both won't go for him and I didn't promise b/c I didn't know if I could jusst do that. Than tonight she started talking to me about it again, and like she has points and I understand but at the same time I see it a differet way. I can see her getting upset but she knows that he is a great guy and if there is a chance of anything happening I just wish she would be happy for me finding someone. I don't know maybe im being selfish.
Now onto boy drama. Ok well I like Parker, but I think all he wants to be is friends which im fine with, but Sarah thinks b/c I want to hang out with him and get to know him better that my motives aare that I am trying to go for him and thats not what they are I just have fun with him and like being around him a lot, its not something that im pushing which is weird b/c I usually have a tendency to do that. It sucks that she said that she would deal if something happened and than I think she realized that him and I were clicking and was like michelle we should promise that we both won't go for him and I didn't promise b/c I didn't know if I could jusst do that. Than tonight she started talking to me about it again, and like she has points and I understand but at the same time I see it a differet way. I can see her getting upset but she knows that he is a great guy and if there is a chance of anything happening I just wish she would be happy for me finding someone. I don't know maybe im being selfish.