Can my life get much worse
So I thought I was already hurt enough by this guy and than I found out last night that his gf didn't even know that they had broke up. So either they never broke up or he decided to tell everyone that they did break up other than her. This is the brightest idea but I decided to get drunk and call him last night and lay everything out. I don't remember what I said really but he was like why don't you call me when I'm sober so I hung up the phone on him. Then I preceded to text message him twice telling him more things and he never even had the nerve to call me back or anything to apologize or be a man. I just text messaged him probably for the last time telling him that I'm sorry I ever met him. Why do I allow myself to like jerks like him. I thought maybe he wasn't like what everyone was saying he was. I just couldn't allow myself to think otherwise b/c he was being so nice to me on the phone and just saying all of these nice things. I should have known better. I hate having the urge to call him, I want to right now, I know I shouldn't but I just keep wanting to why is that. There has been this other guy that I find attractive, but the whole thing happened with Josh, but I don't know if I can go through much more right now. For never having a serious relationship I have seemed to have a lot of heart ache. I am in need of just being home right now.