Plod
One foot in front of the other repeat. Day turns into night turns into day repeat. Eat drink sleep repeat.
Thats about how it goes. Nothing entirely special going on, just plodding around, doing what I need to do. And thats about all I want to spend my time doing, honestly. I just can't wait to get out of here, I need someplace else where I can breathe on my own. Virtually everything pisses me off these days, and if it doesn't piss me off, it makes me sad. Which, regretfully, is unfair to the people I live with. Plus I have a scorching case of senioritis.
And I wish I could stop being so damned sad. I've been reading novels at the rate of sometimes 2 a day (on my off days) about anything just to keep myself occupied, I even do homework to take up my time, I try to keep it so that I don't have spare minutes to sit and sulk. But it doesn't seem to matter, sadness just sort of seeps into everything that I do, and if I weren't me and I was watching me, I'd tell myself to just grow the fuck up and stop being so miserable. I mean, I know that I'm being slightly ridiculous to some people, but the hurt just won't stop, I don't know how to make it stop. And I'm not interested in the usual advice about going out and doing really ridiculous college things because quite frankly, I'm over it. I'm not interested in frat parties anymore, or getting so drunk that I can't speak and act like an asshole. Sorry if I'm pompous, but it was never much my scene anyway, and now I'm really tired of it. So no, going out and acting like an asshole won't help. God, everyone I know keeps saying, "But you're gonna graduate soon!" Good. Bring it the fuck on. Anything to get me out of this place, get me home where I don't have to think about school and grades and papers and how I used to be a rather happy person. I can start over home. Someone give me the remote, I need to fast forward.
Thats about how it goes. Nothing entirely special going on, just plodding around, doing what I need to do. And thats about all I want to spend my time doing, honestly. I just can't wait to get out of here, I need someplace else where I can breathe on my own. Virtually everything pisses me off these days, and if it doesn't piss me off, it makes me sad. Which, regretfully, is unfair to the people I live with. Plus I have a scorching case of senioritis.
And I wish I could stop being so damned sad. I've been reading novels at the rate of sometimes 2 a day (on my off days) about anything just to keep myself occupied, I even do homework to take up my time, I try to keep it so that I don't have spare minutes to sit and sulk. But it doesn't seem to matter, sadness just sort of seeps into everything that I do, and if I weren't me and I was watching me, I'd tell myself to just grow the fuck up and stop being so miserable. I mean, I know that I'm being slightly ridiculous to some people, but the hurt just won't stop, I don't know how to make it stop. And I'm not interested in the usual advice about going out and doing really ridiculous college things because quite frankly, I'm over it. I'm not interested in frat parties anymore, or getting so drunk that I can't speak and act like an asshole. Sorry if I'm pompous, but it was never much my scene anyway, and now I'm really tired of it. So no, going out and acting like an asshole won't help. God, everyone I know keeps saying, "But you're gonna graduate soon!" Good. Bring it the fuck on. Anything to get me out of this place, get me home where I don't have to think about school and grades and papers and how I used to be a rather happy person. I can start over home. Someone give me the remote, I need to fast forward.