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wow, coming back to this feels like an old friend i havent seen in awhile. i must apoligize to my dear livejournal becasue it was always so good to me but i have recently abandoned it for myspace. ouch, i know. mainly the reason being everyone has myspace, which now has become the problem, EVERYONE has myspace. i can np longer rant about any of my exes...y? well because there it is they have access to it, nor cna I gush about my newest crush cause well he never logs his off.
so where to start, oh yeah, what a freakin year I have had so far, heres the quick version of my latest conquests. Travis and I have been done officially for several months, with of course the qucik one time after relationship visit from none other than jordan, shocking, I know. At that time I really thoguht things were going to work out between Tom and i. boy did that turn into a fiasco, im over it, slightly hurt but mostly just dont feel like wasting the time. besides I knew going into it what the risks were and just couldn't resist. I know a lot of people worry about me getting hurt in these situations but im here to tell ya you should all worry about these poor guys and not me. so finally I decided that tom wasnt really worth all of the hassel he was putting me through.
Wnet out with a guy from work a couple of times, but he really just wasn't what i was looking for, though very nice. Travis and, well now there is a fun story. basically we never really stopped sleeping toghether there. I said it, for the offical record im putting it out in the open, somewhat. But he failed to realize that when I said we weren't boyfriend and girlfriend that I was serious. We had planned to just ride it out untill the end of summer, and then he left for a month. All along i had really felt i couldn't live without him, but then for a week I was forced to live without him. I then realized it wasn't so bad, and i liked it actually. For about three days I was actually feeling as though I found what I needed and being single and alone wasn't so scary as I had thought. So I moved all his stuff into a pile in my room, would have moved it back into his but it was locked up, and I planned to just ride out the rest of the summer or even possibly more being single. Ive also been extremly busy with work. So i hadnt really been online in awhile, but decided I had better check to see if anything interesting had come up, because thats really how most people get ahold of me. When I saw the message line I didn't even read it and I knew exactly who it was by the picture next to it. Mike, instantly i was taken back three years and a rush of long buried feelings came flooding back. I dont think it took me even a second to reply i was so excited, so we started messaging, and the next day he called me, wew talked for hours. and that sat I knew I just had to go home. its only been a couple of weeks, and hes already turned my whole world upside down.. i mean, this is the one I had to let go of so long ago, and hes now come back into my life, how do you ignore that? I know I can't. I haven't told him exactly how I feel but Im pretty sure he has an idea. Its scary and exciting and so many things ....ugh!
so where to start, oh yeah, what a freakin year I have had so far, heres the quick version of my latest conquests. Travis and I have been done officially for several months, with of course the qucik one time after relationship visit from none other than jordan, shocking, I know. At that time I really thoguht things were going to work out between Tom and i. boy did that turn into a fiasco, im over it, slightly hurt but mostly just dont feel like wasting the time. besides I knew going into it what the risks were and just couldn't resist. I know a lot of people worry about me getting hurt in these situations but im here to tell ya you should all worry about these poor guys and not me. so finally I decided that tom wasnt really worth all of the hassel he was putting me through.
Wnet out with a guy from work a couple of times, but he really just wasn't what i was looking for, though very nice. Travis and, well now there is a fun story. basically we never really stopped sleeping toghether there. I said it, for the offical record im putting it out in the open, somewhat. But he failed to realize that when I said we weren't boyfriend and girlfriend that I was serious. We had planned to just ride it out untill the end of summer, and then he left for a month. All along i had really felt i couldn't live without him, but then for a week I was forced to live without him. I then realized it wasn't so bad, and i liked it actually. For about three days I was actually feeling as though I found what I needed and being single and alone wasn't so scary as I had thought. So I moved all his stuff into a pile in my room, would have moved it back into his but it was locked up, and I planned to just ride out the rest of the summer or even possibly more being single. Ive also been extremly busy with work. So i hadnt really been online in awhile, but decided I had better check to see if anything interesting had come up, because thats really how most people get ahold of me. When I saw the message line I didn't even read it and I knew exactly who it was by the picture next to it. Mike, instantly i was taken back three years and a rush of long buried feelings came flooding back. I dont think it took me even a second to reply i was so excited, so we started messaging, and the next day he called me, wew talked for hours. and that sat I knew I just had to go home. its only been a couple of weeks, and hes already turned my whole world upside down.. i mean, this is the one I had to let go of so long ago, and hes now come back into my life, how do you ignore that? I know I can't. I haven't told him exactly how I feel but Im pretty sure he has an idea. Its scary and exciting and so many things ....ugh!