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how do you tell the one person in life that you love more than anythign that you can't be with them because your too unstable? are there words for this kind of emotion that I feel? I dont think so. Id like more than anything in this world to tell him Ill be the one waiting here for him, that I wont be with anyone else ,but Im afaraid doing so would kill me. I cant live every day waiting and hoping to hear his voice for just a few minutes. going days on end not hearing a word, adn finally getting to talk and knowing that it will be short because he has things to do.I dont blame him, but i know my emotions get the better of me, and I dont want to put either of us through that again. but I know it hurts him to think of me with someone else, but thats the way it is right now. he cant be here, and Travis is. And I do love Travis, perhaps hes not the one Ill give the rest of my life to, but he is here for me and he loves me and hes a really good guy, thats all I can ever hope to ask for. Hes done nothing wrong and he is making every effort to be better about the little things, why should I let that go?