omg!
ok, Friday night fuckin sucked. I get up at like six in the morning to open the pool on Sat., and I had asked my roomates to keep it down when they party on Friday. The one was cool with it and the other well...not so much. I ended up with like less than two hours of sleeep, and I have a feeling this is going to go on every weekend. now my question is why on earth do I pay alomst four hundred dollars a month to havea place where I can't even sleep....gggrrrrrrraaaar!
Saturday night kinda made up for it though. I dunno how much I liked my company other than jonny but it was cool to hang with him since we don't much right now, but I work a lot and hes got class and work and what not. so these very ...fuzzy girls were therebut they weren't SOO bad. They only really bugged me when they tried to start arguing with me for no reason and had no valid point, support, ect.
omgosh... I had a conversation with ray last night. Not only have I not talked to him in like a year but had an actual conversation...its been liek two years, since back when I had a crush on him. Obviously things are way different now, he has two kids and a wife... hes so grown up! Its so weird but Im really glad that he still feels like he can talk to me as a friend, I was starting to think Id never really get to talk to him again and all now that hes married.I realize if she werent in japan he probly wouldnt have the time to even talk but still it was really cool to remember old names and stories, talk about the rec, ect.
but lately Ive been feeling like Im stuck in this crazy time warp. Between old and new, what i am now, whatI used to be. so much has changed in so little time. Its like one minuet I finally start to feel my age and then i feel like I should be back in my sophmore year of H.S. Its so contradicting. Like for example, shoping with celia for wedding dresses, asking ray how hes dealing with two kids on his onw while his wife is gone, even just me yelling at stupid kids for being to loud when I have to work the next morning, or grocery shopping for myself. but then things from way back get brought up, in conversatino, online quizes, ect. and it all takes me back and Im amazed, because I don't feel and different from that time.The same two eyes look out onto a different world, so when I let myself get lost in memories and then come back to where I am now I feel I dont recognize it a bit. And yet sometimes I let myself stay so caught up with my life NOW that I forget those other places exist.
Saturday night kinda made up for it though. I dunno how much I liked my company other than jonny but it was cool to hang with him since we don't much right now, but I work a lot and hes got class and work and what not. so these very ...fuzzy girls were therebut they weren't SOO bad. They only really bugged me when they tried to start arguing with me for no reason and had no valid point, support, ect.
omgosh... I had a conversation with ray last night. Not only have I not talked to him in like a year but had an actual conversation...its been liek two years, since back when I had a crush on him. Obviously things are way different now, he has two kids and a wife... hes so grown up! Its so weird but Im really glad that he still feels like he can talk to me as a friend, I was starting to think Id never really get to talk to him again and all now that hes married.I realize if she werent in japan he probly wouldnt have the time to even talk but still it was really cool to remember old names and stories, talk about the rec, ect.
but lately Ive been feeling like Im stuck in this crazy time warp. Between old and new, what i am now, whatI used to be. so much has changed in so little time. Its like one minuet I finally start to feel my age and then i feel like I should be back in my sophmore year of H.S. Its so contradicting. Like for example, shoping with celia for wedding dresses, asking ray how hes dealing with two kids on his onw while his wife is gone, even just me yelling at stupid kids for being to loud when I have to work the next morning, or grocery shopping for myself. but then things from way back get brought up, in conversatino, online quizes, ect. and it all takes me back and Im amazed, because I don't feel and different from that time.The same two eyes look out onto a different world, so when I let myself get lost in memories and then come back to where I am now I feel I dont recognize it a bit. And yet sometimes I let myself stay so caught up with my life NOW that I forget those other places exist.