contemplating the universe
what a subject, and, at threee in the morning no less. But really, I am yet again confused about well, everything. I no longer know what makes me happy, and what makes me sad. I had somewhat of a mental breakdown yesterday, and Im not 100 % sure why. I felt much better today, but yet, in the back of my mind are the same old thoughts.
same old tug of war game.
Was he my my one?
or was he just the one so far?
and the same old loneliness.... I hate to be alone, but id rather be alone than with someone I don't want to spend the rest of my life with. Its not even like there is anythign wrong with certain people, but i just dont feel that way about them. I guess having been there and knowing what its like makes it that much harder to date other people.
I know what that burning disire to be with a person is like. I know what its liek to love them more than anything. and it makes everythign else pale in comparision. so will somone someday come along that I love that much more? I hope so, because if they dont Im forever going to be looking back and kicking myself in the ass for letting go of Greg. but I have to let go. We just don't work together. Its so sad but true, how I can love someone so much but hes just not the one.
same old tug of war game.
Was he my my one?
or was he just the one so far?
and the same old loneliness.... I hate to be alone, but id rather be alone than with someone I don't want to spend the rest of my life with. Its not even like there is anythign wrong with certain people, but i just dont feel that way about them. I guess having been there and knowing what its like makes it that much harder to date other people.
I know what that burning disire to be with a person is like. I know what its liek to love them more than anything. and it makes everythign else pale in comparision. so will somone someday come along that I love that much more? I hope so, because if they dont Im forever going to be looking back and kicking myself in the ass for letting go of Greg. but I have to let go. We just don't work together. Its so sad but true, how I can love someone so much but hes just not the one.