wow i am updatin
ok so i know i know it has been a long while sence i have posted but hey u know what can u do???
lets start with school...I HATE IT n on sunday i told my mom i hate it n she was like well u better start likein it b/c if ur attitude doesn't change towards school u won't b aloud to do nethin but school n i just looked at her n laughed b/c they always give me these harsh punishments n they don't even last a day i mean yeah they scare me but i have cought on n i now kjnow that they don't meant it so pretty much I GOT THE POWER lol...i do have a health class at pbcc it's fun i mean i like it b/c the 1st week there were 3o ppl n i was the only girl (yes i got a few #s) n the 2nd week there was like 3 more girls but w/e. i have that class tonite(tuesday nites)
ok so now on to eagle ettes...what can i say?; i pretty much can't stand it sometimes i mean i love it n all n i love the ppl there but i can't stand how dicillo treats every person different, like she has no set rules they change for who ever she like or doesn't like n it is such bull shit to the point where i fuckin broke down yesterday n cried for like an hour b/c i just couldn't hold it in ne longer. o n nicole nice actin, ur sick my ass just b/c u went out to late or somethin doesn't give u grounds to play the sick game in the middle of comp. season...get ur shit straight. ne ways enough bout that section
in like the past 2 moinths i have become a really different person...i now don't give a fuck what people think about me n i don't care who the hell u r if i have somethin to say to you i will tell u to your face n i will tell u how i think it is n if u dissagree with me i don't really care b/c at least i spoke my mind...my new mottos for life are "AGE IS NOTHING BUT A NUMBER" "U DO WHAT U GOTTA DO" n "U ONLY LIVE ONE TIME SO MAKE THE MOST OF IT"...i will never look back n b like damn i wish i did that or i wish i didn't do this b/c it made me the person i am n if u don't like it o well get over it or don't talk to me
ok n the whole GUY PROBLEM THING is so confusing...i don't even know what is goin on in my head...this guy that i was hookin up with is so weird that i can't ever understand him n i pretty much think that things b/t us are over (as sad as it is) but w/e u do what u gotta do...there are these 4 other guys(David M*** Derk Jacob)that i have hooked up with every now n then over the past 2 months...i mean it was all fun n shit but i don't know something just draws me to the othe guy a lot more. he's not the oldest but he is the i have the most fun with and i feel the most like myself around, but what can u do when there are like 80 million hotter girls than u out there?...o n u know what is even fucken better? my little crush is back...i'm not ganna say the name b/c i know he will read this n be freaked out to the fullest n prob not talk to me for like another 6 months b/c he's weird(i'm not sayin he has to like me b/c i know that he doesn't n prob never will but u don't have to b such a dick about it just act like we r friends. i mean haven't u liked some1 that was a friend n they knew bout u likin them but they still treated u like the same old friend even if they didn't like u back?) but i don't know there is just something bout this one that no matter what i do or who i go out or hook up with i always c him n think what would it b like? u know?...so that's that um...
ok so the party life is great lol...lately my weekends have felt like one on going blurrrrrrr...i remember everything but just not when it happened lol it is kinda bad thought b/c lately i have been gettin fucked up like every nite even school nites...sometimes in school i am CRAZY MESSED UP, like the other day when i fell down the stairs lol it was so funny but so painful...but what ever u only live 1 time so make the best of it. the only time i don't think i am fucked up is when i am at eagle ettes or when i go to work
omg my dog had puppies on sunday nite...i didn't even know the damn thing was close to havin the little suckers...she had 3 boys n 3 girls but the runt (a boy) died this mornin
hahahaha the funniest thing...my mom saw the "marks" on my neck n she asked my brother to spy on me n find out if i had a boyfriend b/c she didn't want to ask me lol n he told n i was just laughin lol
lately it's weird n i never would have tought it but i have been hanging out w/ some new ppl when i'm not w/ my older friends: alex(yes kelso), josh, anthony, christian, brittany, ally, christina, emily, billy, david, n catlin
that's all for now b/c i have to go n do a lot of hw and then it's off to eagle ettes...JUST LEAVE ME ONE LETTIN ME KNOW NE THING
lets start with school...I HATE IT n on sunday i told my mom i hate it n she was like well u better start likein it b/c if ur attitude doesn't change towards school u won't b aloud to do nethin but school n i just looked at her n laughed b/c they always give me these harsh punishments n they don't even last a day i mean yeah they scare me but i have cought on n i now kjnow that they don't meant it so pretty much I GOT THE POWER lol...i do have a health class at pbcc it's fun i mean i like it b/c the 1st week there were 3o ppl n i was the only girl (yes i got a few #s) n the 2nd week there was like 3 more girls but w/e. i have that class tonite(tuesday nites)
ok so now on to eagle ettes...what can i say?; i pretty much can't stand it sometimes i mean i love it n all n i love the ppl there but i can't stand how dicillo treats every person different, like she has no set rules they change for who ever she like or doesn't like n it is such bull shit to the point where i fuckin broke down yesterday n cried for like an hour b/c i just couldn't hold it in ne longer. o n nicole nice actin, ur sick my ass just b/c u went out to late or somethin doesn't give u grounds to play the sick game in the middle of comp. season...get ur shit straight. ne ways enough bout that section
in like the past 2 moinths i have become a really different person...i now don't give a fuck what people think about me n i don't care who the hell u r if i have somethin to say to you i will tell u to your face n i will tell u how i think it is n if u dissagree with me i don't really care b/c at least i spoke my mind...my new mottos for life are "AGE IS NOTHING BUT A NUMBER" "U DO WHAT U GOTTA DO" n "U ONLY LIVE ONE TIME SO MAKE THE MOST OF IT"...i will never look back n b like damn i wish i did that or i wish i didn't do this b/c it made me the person i am n if u don't like it o well get over it or don't talk to me
ok n the whole GUY PROBLEM THING is so confusing...i don't even know what is goin on in my head...this guy that i was hookin up with is so weird that i can't ever understand him n i pretty much think that things b/t us are over (as sad as it is) but w/e u do what u gotta do...there are these 4 other guys(David M*** Derk Jacob)that i have hooked up with every now n then over the past 2 months...i mean it was all fun n shit but i don't know something just draws me to the othe guy a lot more. he's not the oldest but he is the i have the most fun with and i feel the most like myself around, but what can u do when there are like 80 million hotter girls than u out there?...o n u know what is even fucken better? my little crush is back...i'm not ganna say the name b/c i know he will read this n be freaked out to the fullest n prob not talk to me for like another 6 months b/c he's weird(i'm not sayin he has to like me b/c i know that he doesn't n prob never will but u don't have to b such a dick about it just act like we r friends. i mean haven't u liked some1 that was a friend n they knew bout u likin them but they still treated u like the same old friend even if they didn't like u back?) but i don't know there is just something bout this one that no matter what i do or who i go out or hook up with i always c him n think what would it b like? u know?...so that's that um...
ok so the party life is great lol...lately my weekends have felt like one on going blurrrrrrr...i remember everything but just not when it happened lol it is kinda bad thought b/c lately i have been gettin fucked up like every nite even school nites...sometimes in school i am CRAZY MESSED UP, like the other day when i fell down the stairs lol it was so funny but so painful...but what ever u only live 1 time so make the best of it. the only time i don't think i am fucked up is when i am at eagle ettes or when i go to work
omg my dog had puppies on sunday nite...i didn't even know the damn thing was close to havin the little suckers...she had 3 boys n 3 girls but the runt (a boy) died this mornin
hahahaha the funniest thing...my mom saw the "marks" on my neck n she asked my brother to spy on me n find out if i had a boyfriend b/c she didn't want to ask me lol n he told n i was just laughin lol
lately it's weird n i never would have tought it but i have been hanging out w/ some new ppl when i'm not w/ my older friends: alex(yes kelso), josh, anthony, christian, brittany, ally, christina, emily, billy, david, n catlin
that's all for now b/c i have to go n do a lot of hw and then it's off to eagle ettes...JUST LEAVE ME ONE LETTIN ME KNOW NE THING