Luna's funeral is tonight
Little Luna's funeral is tonight. I have to say, this is all so surreal. It's like a dream, the time we spent so focused on her up in Indy for 6 weeks. Now her body will be gone. I was so fortunate to have been able to hold her as she passed quietly from this world. Quiet was something she never got to experience, hooked up to so many many dinging and bonging machines. When they turned off all the equipment, the sound of just the pure nothingness was almost overwhelming in its roar. I felt her soul slip away, right into our hearts, and odd as it may seem, I was filled with an amazing peace and crazy joy, just like when you are in love.
I will miss her. I spent almost every day staring at her little face, her little body, filled with wonder and trepidation that someone so big could exist in such a tiny body. Somehow, something inside me knew she wouldn't be with us long.
My arms just ache to hold her. My breasts hurt, and they leak as my milk goes away, the milk I worked so hard for pumping every day to make sure she'd have enough to sustain her. I donated it to the milk bank, so other babies can be blessed with that gift.
She was a huge swell of a blessing, an ocean wave that overtook us and swept us up into the sea of dreams.
I will miss her. I spent almost every day staring at her little face, her little body, filled with wonder and trepidation that someone so big could exist in such a tiny body. Somehow, something inside me knew she wouldn't be with us long.
My arms just ache to hold her. My breasts hurt, and they leak as my milk goes away, the milk I worked so hard for pumping every day to make sure she'd have enough to sustain her. I donated it to the milk bank, so other babies can be blessed with that gift.
She was a huge swell of a blessing, an ocean wave that overtook us and swept us up into the sea of dreams.