More to get off the chest....
To those few reading... please comment, I need all the feedback/positive reinforcement I can get!!!!
So listen, I don't know at which period in my life you "checked in" as a friend, but regardless, I have been undergoing changes which reminisce of old dilemmas and am seeking your input, as a friend, to help me sort things out.
As of the last 3 or 4 years, I really have been "problem free," taking life day by day and slowly advancing in my grip on "the way life works." I used to have certain mental blocks, certain funks I would get into that would be very counterproductive. For example, I would nose dive into phases of negative thinking, indecision, and an inability to deal with the present. For many years I worked on eliminating these cancerous thought processes. After years of work, I realized that positive, reality minded thinking is far healthier than catastrophic negative thinking.
I have undergone MANY life changes in the last 2 or 3 years, mostly independent of any continued "work" on reinforcing positive thoughts. Now, all of the sudden, I feel that my system is "blocked up" with negative energy. Whereas before I would only look at the positive, not overly worry, and take everything with a smile, now I seem to be very negative, expecting the worst, and not able to see a solution to any dilemma I am currently in. I feel as if I am looking down at my life, watching my interactions, seeing what exactly is bothering me, but unable to physically put anything into action. I feel as if I am watching a sitcom, unable to instruct the main character how to progress in his dilemma. I have been faced with a large number of changes in a short amount of time, and part of me seems to think that these negative thoughts are just a form of a defense mechanism preventing me with living in the present, and effectively dealing with life challenges. Is it possible that all these changes have put my system on a sort of overload?
At any rate, I need all the advice and feedback I can get. Due to a lack of social "springboards" I have been running through my life scenarios over and over and over again, with little measurable progress, and much headache. Lately it has been 99% worry, and 1% action. I need a beacon of clarity.
Thanks for the ears.
So listen, I don't know at which period in my life you "checked in" as a friend, but regardless, I have been undergoing changes which reminisce of old dilemmas and am seeking your input, as a friend, to help me sort things out.
As of the last 3 or 4 years, I really have been "problem free," taking life day by day and slowly advancing in my grip on "the way life works." I used to have certain mental blocks, certain funks I would get into that would be very counterproductive. For example, I would nose dive into phases of negative thinking, indecision, and an inability to deal with the present. For many years I worked on eliminating these cancerous thought processes. After years of work, I realized that positive, reality minded thinking is far healthier than catastrophic negative thinking.
I have undergone MANY life changes in the last 2 or 3 years, mostly independent of any continued "work" on reinforcing positive thoughts. Now, all of the sudden, I feel that my system is "blocked up" with negative energy. Whereas before I would only look at the positive, not overly worry, and take everything with a smile, now I seem to be very negative, expecting the worst, and not able to see a solution to any dilemma I am currently in. I feel as if I am looking down at my life, watching my interactions, seeing what exactly is bothering me, but unable to physically put anything into action. I feel as if I am watching a sitcom, unable to instruct the main character how to progress in his dilemma. I have been faced with a large number of changes in a short amount of time, and part of me seems to think that these negative thoughts are just a form of a defense mechanism preventing me with living in the present, and effectively dealing with life challenges. Is it possible that all these changes have put my system on a sort of overload?
At any rate, I need all the advice and feedback I can get. Due to a lack of social "springboards" I have been running through my life scenarios over and over and over again, with little measurable progress, and much headache. Lately it has been 99% worry, and 1% action. I need a beacon of clarity.
Thanks for the ears.