Just woke up dream dump
If I put all the pieces together I think I was Casey in Greek and was going around someones back with Evan Chambers. Evan looked like Josh Sanchez from
High school and he was just as douchey as ever except that he kept trying so hard to bully me into dating him. In one carride while i was driving , he was being unusually sweet and i caved and held hands with him and felt extremely guilty because that was my thing to do woth bj who looked like cappie. Eventually I caved and went on a secret date with him or started sneaking around with him. He was keeping wrappers of mints he got on our dates and noting on them what we did and when. Found a paper that looked like one big decision tree of mine - had a key added by him that said mess up, help with, etc. Like he'd been tryin to be a part of my life any any way possible and under a douchey exterior Long before I gave him a chance he cared for me and was trying to do what he could to be close but just didn't know how to stop being douchey. Went to some event and cappy was there and I felt super sad at my sneaking around. I felt for cappy what I feel for bj now. But the appeal of Josh/evan c was one of finding a bully who was only thoughtful and caring in private and only to me. Spent the majority of the event dancing with e/j and avoidind cappie/bj.
This is what comes of sleeping on a couch unsoundly in an apartment with way too thin of walls and having Cheaters be the last thing you watch on a weekend full of Greek life activities.
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