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Somethings are not meant to be shared with others. Somethings you must
keep to yourself and hope to survive it. Yesterday's post was such a
thing. Had I been thinking either I would have locked it or just not
posted it at all.
No, today is no better. What will tomorrow bring... gods I don't even want
to think about, and forget about the weekend, a nice long weekend.
Well, if I'm going to share I might as well just share the rest.
Being told someone is unable to see you because they can't handle it, is
rather crushing, reading this while at work, very bad mix.
But now I'm sitting at home, yes more crying off and on, and wonder what
is left now. What do I do? Can anything be salvaged from this?
I have people trying to say oh I now understand you better and I just want
to kick them and scream at them. They understand nothing. They don't see
the pain and the confusion, all they see is a bunch of rambles that don't
give the full picture of anything. Those damn rambles that should have
just been kept to myself has only done more harm. He now hurts (most
likely as much as I do) and I still have no way of fixing anything. And
now instead of being held by the person I love, I'm kept at a distance.
******
Not kept at such a distance it would seem. Ice cream is always a good
reason to get together with someone. Well, if you find that you must have
a reason at least. I feel a bit better, and no its not from the ice cream.
Just being near him helps. It doesn't make everything go away but makes it
a bit more..... at a distance so it doesn't hurt as much. Nice mellow time
at the park helps too.
Now maybe with some sleep, tomorrow will turn out better then today. Well,
the first half of today at least. I enjoyed the last half.
Here's to hoping for sleep.
keep to yourself and hope to survive it. Yesterday's post was such a
thing. Had I been thinking either I would have locked it or just not
posted it at all.
No, today is no better. What will tomorrow bring... gods I don't even want
to think about, and forget about the weekend, a nice long weekend.
Well, if I'm going to share I might as well just share the rest.
Being told someone is unable to see you because they can't handle it, is
rather crushing, reading this while at work, very bad mix.
But now I'm sitting at home, yes more crying off and on, and wonder what
is left now. What do I do? Can anything be salvaged from this?
I have people trying to say oh I now understand you better and I just want
to kick them and scream at them. They understand nothing. They don't see
the pain and the confusion, all they see is a bunch of rambles that don't
give the full picture of anything. Those damn rambles that should have
just been kept to myself has only done more harm. He now hurts (most
likely as much as I do) and I still have no way of fixing anything. And
now instead of being held by the person I love, I'm kept at a distance.
******
Not kept at such a distance it would seem. Ice cream is always a good
reason to get together with someone. Well, if you find that you must have
a reason at least. I feel a bit better, and no its not from the ice cream.
Just being near him helps. It doesn't make everything go away but makes it
a bit more..... at a distance so it doesn't hurt as much. Nice mellow time
at the park helps too.
Now maybe with some sleep, tomorrow will turn out better then today. Well,
the first half of today at least. I enjoyed the last half.
Here's to hoping for sleep.