my insane week!
ok...this week was going pretty good...i was getting along with my mom and her boyfriend and his mother.Then on wednesday night ...well, it was actually thursday morning at like 12am, I went for a walk cuz i couldn't sleep...i had been reading some of the notes that me and Vance would write back and forth. I got upset and i just wasn't tired afyer that. So i went for a walk and ended up meeting someone who offered to party with me. I expected it to be this huge party but it was only me and him. We went to the super 8 motel and we had some fun...not that kind of fun, though. During the ride of getting to know eachother, he asked me if i wanted to do some coke...so of course i said 'sure'. so that is what we did. He showed me how to make the pipe and stuff. When we got to the motel, we did some more. I later on at like 7:20am called my friend up and said some fucked up shit to him. He got mad and hung up on me...but i didn't know that i was doing all this cuz i was only doing what Y.B. said. Then after that i called my mom so she knew where i was and i lied to her and said it was a friend from the army that came for a vivt and spotted me walking. Needless to say she bought it. We smoked til like 11am and then he dropped me off at home. The rest of the day i was tired and i couldn't eat at all. But when i realized what i had done i called my friend back and appologized to him...then i spent the night at his house.but that wasn't all that had happened. Y.B. had decided to get me to do that so i would be single and go out with him. But i am free to do my own thing. It was fun that day, but i don't think i could do it again. I ended up messing with him....i am so not proud of myself for it but there is nothing i could do now. anyways, i guess that while i was messed up on the shit we did, i had thought about what he said to me about how he would take care of me and in 3 weeks we could have a baby...not that i want one but he said i would get my insurance fastser if i was prego. He went o to say that he was getting an apartment and i could move in so he could be there for me. He was basically telling me what i have been waiting to hear from some guy that really wants to be with me...the 1 i haven't found yet...and i believed him. The fact that he would support me and wants a family is cool but we are way too different! He wants certain things from me that i just don't want to do. And there are things that he should do for me that he won't do. So i think that for know we are just gonna have to be friends. And now i will have to live with out ever holding him to it. I guess that i could wait a little longer to hear thet kind of stuff. Anyways, On another note, D.J. is going on this trip i guess it has something to do with killing ppl in Iraq and i won't talk to him for a month. But he is trying to get back to connecticut for Memorial weekend. If he does come back we are gonna get to know eachother again and if we still have those feelings for eachother i am just gonna have to say 'yes' this time to marring him...and i won't back down this time!But i want my friends to be there and help me pick out a dress and it will be a big wedding cuz he wants it that way...i don't know y.So i will need to figure out the color scheme. We both want it to be Black, but he wants to wear green and black.And i want it to be black another somewhat bright color...like magenta or purple or blue.i did at 1 time want it to be crimson and black, but too many ppl are wearing those colors.ok...well basically that has been my week so far.Laterz!!!<3 Pixel