Daddy's Girl
I miss him and what we used to have....We were so close and best friends. I guess I started to look beyond it all. We have both changed so much in the past 3 years that sometimes it feels like we are total opposites. The jealousy of the attention that he gives to Melissa and Jacqueline is so powerful sometimes and it hurts so bad.
Just feeling like I disappointed him somewhere along the line is the worst feeling. There needs to be something for him to proud of. I guess when it comes down to it he is honored to have me as a daughter and can't ask me to be something more than what I am. My mother has always wanted me to be something other than I am but not him he is always there for me and the other night when my mother threw one of her usually rude comments into the conversation he just understood me and told her this is who I was and I wasn't going to change. It was kind of like a burden was lifted and someone was saying Yeah go ahead it is okay to be you. Lately, when I see something on TV or hear a song it makes me cry because it makes me want to just be home telling my dad how much I love him. I just want everything to be as good as it was. I was his first and brought so much happiness into his life. Has anyone ever seen their father cry? If you have you know it is the worst feeling in the world to see strength of your life and family to break down and be weak. I have always been and always will be a daddy's girl. My mother always says you don't appreciate your father enough but if she only knew to what a high regard I hold him to. He has always provided for us and I guess I am one of the lucky ones. Things seem bad sometimes when we aren't agreeing but there is nothing more I could ever want or ask for from someone. He is my sunshine! Count your blessings and cherish your loved ones.
Sorry for going on and on I just have a lot on my mind! I'll write back soon.
Miss Bren, Agz, Ant, Dave, Disney, and Mark....Can't wait for Christmas! MUAH
Just feeling like I disappointed him somewhere along the line is the worst feeling. There needs to be something for him to proud of. I guess when it comes down to it he is honored to have me as a daughter and can't ask me to be something more than what I am. My mother has always wanted me to be something other than I am but not him he is always there for me and the other night when my mother threw one of her usually rude comments into the conversation he just understood me and told her this is who I was and I wasn't going to change. It was kind of like a burden was lifted and someone was saying Yeah go ahead it is okay to be you. Lately, when I see something on TV or hear a song it makes me cry because it makes me want to just be home telling my dad how much I love him. I just want everything to be as good as it was. I was his first and brought so much happiness into his life. Has anyone ever seen their father cry? If you have you know it is the worst feeling in the world to see strength of your life and family to break down and be weak. I have always been and always will be a daddy's girl. My mother always says you don't appreciate your father enough but if she only knew to what a high regard I hold him to. He has always provided for us and I guess I am one of the lucky ones. Things seem bad sometimes when we aren't agreeing but there is nothing more I could ever want or ask for from someone. He is my sunshine! Count your blessings and cherish your loved ones.
Sorry for going on and on I just have a lot on my mind! I'll write back soon.
Miss Bren, Agz, Ant, Dave, Disney, and Mark....Can't wait for Christmas! MUAH