A little random update
I haven't been here in years.
Wow.... I received an e-mail suggesting me to update... so here I am.
As I am remembering my past life on live journal, I remember self being so lost and...weird lol. I think I should come back here....to vent. Just fuckin complain about everything. I have this motto ''fake it till you make it'' but sometimes, I just need to talk about my fears and things that pisses me off.
Today, I mostly feel lonely. I have been in a bad place since Edge as closed down and I don't DJ every weekend. I was worst but I started antidepressants again....so yay..no unnecessary crying. I can't handle an emotional beak down right now lol.
So I feel lonely, but I haven't been doing nothing to get better. I mean, with my music, I could be in such a better place. But it's like, I lost my motivation. I guess it's what a writer would call a writter's block. I guess I am having a DJ'S block. I blame it on that crappy commercial and mainstream music. I mean, I can always find a remix, lol, but I want to play and create something different. Try a different style.
I have grown up. My tastes are changing...and I don't think everybody is gonna like it...but hopefully the right people will.
Sending lots of love to anybody who is reading this.
Wow.... I received an e-mail suggesting me to update... so here I am.
As I am remembering my past life on live journal, I remember self being so lost and...weird lol. I think I should come back here....to vent. Just fuckin complain about everything. I have this motto ''fake it till you make it'' but sometimes, I just need to talk about my fears and things that pisses me off.
Today, I mostly feel lonely. I have been in a bad place since Edge as closed down and I don't DJ every weekend. I was worst but I started antidepressants again....so yay..no unnecessary crying. I can't handle an emotional beak down right now lol.
So I feel lonely, but I haven't been doing nothing to get better. I mean, with my music, I could be in such a better place. But it's like, I lost my motivation. I guess it's what a writer would call a writter's block. I guess I am having a DJ'S block. I blame it on that crappy commercial and mainstream music. I mean, I can always find a remix, lol, but I want to play and create something different. Try a different style.
I have grown up. My tastes are changing...and I don't think everybody is gonna like it...but hopefully the right people will.
Sending lots of love to anybody who is reading this.