how the hell do i get in these situations
So steph and me have been mad tight for a while and i wanted/needed her to gtfo her dads place...........
so now she is....
she is one of the few ppl that act like she cares not just says it
steph was over there and needed to leave and i have no home now...i couldnt go back to annap too late.
anywayyyyy.
so i picked up steph up near whitemarsh. we were both wide awake and wanted to chat for a while...which we did.
it just sucks cause....
heres the problem: she lives at saras.
not a problem really....
but like serioussly?
we had to go to dennys..sat there for like 3 hrs didnt order food, just drinks..
now clearly sara has every right to not want me over spending the nite etc......
im her ex boyfriend.
that part also sucks. moreso because if we just never dated round two, wed be fine...
well who knows where wed be really...
but the point is her and me both want a friendship.
and very strong one, it seems as well.
and just never go down that romance path.
i rememeber talking to her back when travis was dating sav under the radar after sara was told about everything from travis....that it was possible for me to crash there a bunch of nites, id even throw money, i just dont want to be in a lease till i knowhow long the job.
well steph went to bed. and for obvious reasons couldnt let me stay there for 2 hours.
i dont want to put her in any kinda wierd position.
but if it was any other house there wouldnt have been any porblems. hell we woulda justbeen there from the get go and skipped dennys
maybe id be allowed to hang with steph when sara is working?
which in and of itself is a problem cause once i get trashed i still got to gtfo before 2am....anyway not of importance really.
i wont be allowed to join on any late nite adventures with either of my close friends as i read all about it on fb etc.
but i should be used to that.
steph is the first person who was excited to see me in a loooong time.
sara has that look of "gotta put up with/deal with rob around"
i thought focusing on the friendship would be ok. i came face to face with reality that she doesnt want to date me..but she does want to keep a friendship...
i just wish i could feel like she considers me a close friend again. cause that i havent in ages..mostly due to the dating crap thats bein going on for so long.
so maybe now shit will change? maybe not.
but right now im focusing on the friendship stuff, and yet even in that dept i feel empty. and it grows as i get nothing from her. but i mean. im not going to. this is how its gonna be.
Bottomline. Im not upset with anyone. At all. I just want to laugh and play with everyone. Late advetures and drunken moments. I havt been invited anywhere in a while. I don't have many friends and sara is one of he few. I love just hanging out playing. And that's what gets my mind off the lack of romance when everyone is just havin a good time. Instead im left out alone and therefor left to think in my headwhich is really bad...
This sucks
chilling in my car for past few hrs. its cold as shit. time for work.
so now she is....
she is one of the few ppl that act like she cares not just says it
steph was over there and needed to leave and i have no home now...i couldnt go back to annap too late.
anywayyyyy.
so i picked up steph up near whitemarsh. we were both wide awake and wanted to chat for a while...which we did.
it just sucks cause....
heres the problem: she lives at saras.
not a problem really....
but like serioussly?
we had to go to dennys..sat there for like 3 hrs didnt order food, just drinks..
now clearly sara has every right to not want me over spending the nite etc......
im her ex boyfriend.
that part also sucks. moreso because if we just never dated round two, wed be fine...
well who knows where wed be really...
but the point is her and me both want a friendship.
and very strong one, it seems as well.
and just never go down that romance path.
i rememeber talking to her back when travis was dating sav under the radar after sara was told about everything from travis....that it was possible for me to crash there a bunch of nites, id even throw money, i just dont want to be in a lease till i knowhow long the job.
well steph went to bed. and for obvious reasons couldnt let me stay there for 2 hours.
i dont want to put her in any kinda wierd position.
but if it was any other house there wouldnt have been any porblems. hell we woulda justbeen there from the get go and skipped dennys
maybe id be allowed to hang with steph when sara is working?
which in and of itself is a problem cause once i get trashed i still got to gtfo before 2am....anyway not of importance really.
i wont be allowed to join on any late nite adventures with either of my close friends as i read all about it on fb etc.
but i should be used to that.
steph is the first person who was excited to see me in a loooong time.
sara has that look of "gotta put up with/deal with rob around"
i thought focusing on the friendship would be ok. i came face to face with reality that she doesnt want to date me..but she does want to keep a friendship...
i just wish i could feel like she considers me a close friend again. cause that i havent in ages..mostly due to the dating crap thats bein going on for so long.
so maybe now shit will change? maybe not.
but right now im focusing on the friendship stuff, and yet even in that dept i feel empty. and it grows as i get nothing from her. but i mean. im not going to. this is how its gonna be.
Bottomline. Im not upset with anyone. At all. I just want to laugh and play with everyone. Late advetures and drunken moments. I havt been invited anywhere in a while. I don't have many friends and sara is one of he few. I love just hanging out playing. And that's what gets my mind off the lack of romance when everyone is just havin a good time. Instead im left out alone and therefor left to think in my headwhich is really bad...
This sucks
chilling in my car for past few hrs. its cold as shit. time for work.