Love sick can kill you!
I am going to be alone for the rest of my life. This person I thought liked me... the one I really really really liked, well turns out just wants to be my friend. Typical, this happens all the time. What is wrong with me. I mean really, WTF is wrong? I tell you I cannot read flirt at all nor can I apparently do it well. Ok, everyone if you have not got it already that person was a boy... yes a boy. Yes, I just realized that I am gay. I guess. Its hard to think this even more so when you constantly try to prove it wrong.
But you dont understand how much I liked him. I liked him from the first moment i met him. I liked all his flaws and imperfection and all his weirdness. Yes, he is 18 and that sometimes is a problem but when I first met him I thought he was like 20. You cannot help who you like.
This is what pisses me off about this situation the most. I told his hag, which is not his hag for very long. He is done with her and all her fucking crap. SHE TOLD HIM I LIKED HIM... what a bitch. GAYS NEED TO LOOSE THEIR HAGS FOR GOOD! I hate her so much.
So, a part of me thinks I could have had a chance and then now knowing what I know tells me differently. I mean he said it was not because of why I thought why he would not like me... I thought it was because of me being almost 6 years older than him and because of me being over weight. Turns out that is not the case, it was that I come off strong or something I dont know... I mean I thought he liked that... boy was I wrong.
Jesus I cried over this... I never cry over people... he broke my heart. And he, I know feels bad, hes a good person. He told me not to feel bad and dont worry about it... but come on how can I not care or worry about it... I mean our friendship will be fine...I hope, I guess... no, it must.
Oh, also there was this other boy who I work with who we all think is gay... also I am friends with... well I told him... and then he felt bad and was listening and then said... "Oh this is off topic, but I wanted to tell you that I never noticed that you are amazing at costuming and that bla bla bla" SO I was lead to believe he liked me.... which if true is the same story as me and Kyle.... but me in Kyles shoes...
Kyle is someone I would have never thought I would have liked... Hes tall and skinny... I like them about my height and not so skinny but skinny. With wonderful eyes and smiles. Oh and dark hair. I also like them to be kind of girly and into th
Well this Gertrude McFuz will never get his Hirton to noice him ever. (sorry its the love story in Seussical... its fitting I guess.)Musicals are not real live, they delute you and your hopes and dreams. Fuck them.
But you dont understand how much I liked him. I liked him from the first moment i met him. I liked all his flaws and imperfection and all his weirdness. Yes, he is 18 and that sometimes is a problem but when I first met him I thought he was like 20. You cannot help who you like.
This is what pisses me off about this situation the most. I told his hag, which is not his hag for very long. He is done with her and all her fucking crap. SHE TOLD HIM I LIKED HIM... what a bitch. GAYS NEED TO LOOSE THEIR HAGS FOR GOOD! I hate her so much.
So, a part of me thinks I could have had a chance and then now knowing what I know tells me differently. I mean he said it was not because of why I thought why he would not like me... I thought it was because of me being almost 6 years older than him and because of me being over weight. Turns out that is not the case, it was that I come off strong or something I dont know... I mean I thought he liked that... boy was I wrong.
Jesus I cried over this... I never cry over people... he broke my heart. And he, I know feels bad, hes a good person. He told me not to feel bad and dont worry about it... but come on how can I not care or worry about it... I mean our friendship will be fine...I hope, I guess... no, it must.
Oh, also there was this other boy who I work with who we all think is gay... also I am friends with... well I told him... and then he felt bad and was listening and then said... "Oh this is off topic, but I wanted to tell you that I never noticed that you are amazing at costuming and that bla bla bla" SO I was lead to believe he liked me.... which if true is the same story as me and Kyle.... but me in Kyles shoes...
Kyle is someone I would have never thought I would have liked... Hes tall and skinny... I like them about my height and not so skinny but skinny. With wonderful eyes and smiles. Oh and dark hair. I also like them to be kind of girly and into th
Well this Gertrude McFuz will never get his Hirton to noice him ever. (sorry its the love story in Seussical... its fitting I guess.)Musicals are not real live, they delute you and your hopes and dreams. Fuck them.