Just what the fuck
so yesterday, after a long day at us cellular.. rick called to invite me to his b-day party at wrigley which i totally forgot... So of cource i had to say yes too.. Turned out to be the worst game ever. 1-0, with cubs only getting 1 hit. Beautiful view from the 3rd row bleachers though. ANYHOW, when sevil called i told her that i would be going to marks right after the game, since im actually not working in the morning. She seemed upset, so i sent a picture of the ballpark, with "i wish u were here"... After the game, i got back faster than i thought, so i thought i would go see sevil for a little bit since i missed her so much. When i open the door, she jumps from the couch, along with another guy. Some ghetto thug from her work or something. Im just like what the fuck. I left and then she comes running to me, saying its nothing. Fuck that. She doesnt have the fucking respect to fucking call me and tell me that shes chilling at her house with another guy, while she knows i will be away? What the fuck am i suppost to fucking think? How the fuck would you fucking feel if i was at the house with another girl when i knew you would be away? And the worst part about it is that this isnt the first time this has happened. Shes had a guy friend over alone. But at least i knew about it. and that time we talked it over and agreed she wouldnt be alone with another guy. She fucking broke that, along with my trust. She says she was going to tell me after, but how can i TRUELY know that. I do trust her. But it hurts. just so much. Just so fucking much........ This comes after telling me shes scared were going to fall apart becuase Im so busy wih school and work. You think I want to work. That its only for me? No.. Thats a whole nother entry... She told me she invited him over becuase "she didnt want to be alone"... So apparently being with another guy alone in your apartment is better than being alone?!..... Just what the fuck were you thinking? what can you say to make me feel better? Just what the fuck...............................................................................................