update
well its a few dyas before vacation... and im only looking forward to it for a break. i realy need to just relax and try to still figure out where or wat i do. im still feeling messed up and broken inside... from being dumped, so just lil things that happen every day.
friday night is another set of races... thank god for this truck, its hlped me deal so much. so far, diego, paul, delmar, sherman, nick, and jay wanna race me... but who nows who will actuely race. but after friday... there prob wont be races for the rest of vaca.
sat my family and i leave for new york. the last time i went on a vacation, i had a panic attack and drive home at 3am from the cape. i hope i do better this time...
one more thing thats been makin me feel down, is all the prom tlak. being single just before prom sucks... ima stay home for prom, i think irina is too so maby well see a movie... that way i dont feel like a complete loser. i just want prom to go by so i dont ahve to deal w/ it all... just the thought of it bring us realy bad memories, and it sucks.
ok, i guess thats about how i am now. im not depressed like last mondy, but im just feeling like a failuere kinda, feel like i screwed the best thing i had, and now this is my payment. i hope something can help lift my spirits soon, and not a temporary fix...
im off,
ray
friday night is another set of races... thank god for this truck, its hlped me deal so much. so far, diego, paul, delmar, sherman, nick, and jay wanna race me... but who nows who will actuely race. but after friday... there prob wont be races for the rest of vaca.
sat my family and i leave for new york. the last time i went on a vacation, i had a panic attack and drive home at 3am from the cape. i hope i do better this time...
one more thing thats been makin me feel down, is all the prom tlak. being single just before prom sucks... ima stay home for prom, i think irina is too so maby well see a movie... that way i dont feel like a complete loser. i just want prom to go by so i dont ahve to deal w/ it all... just the thought of it bring us realy bad memories, and it sucks.
ok, i guess thats about how i am now. im not depressed like last mondy, but im just feeling like a failuere kinda, feel like i screwed the best thing i had, and now this is my payment. i hope something can help lift my spirits soon, and not a temporary fix...
im off,
ray