dating

[djseacow]

you know ive made a lot of mistakes with dating in the past, i mean ive been out with people i didnt know well, i went out with the first person that came along, without knowing their beliefs or bakcground, and well it was stupid. i wrote poems for my future wife and said it was for them, becouse i was so stupid, God gave me an ability to write, to write with a passion, and i shoudlnt waste that, and i dont, but i shouldnt tell people its for them, when in my heart of hearts i know its not, its for my future wife. ive wasted months among months of my life with girls i didnt care about so much, girls like katie and what not, sure i said i did, but did i really? nah, not nearly as much as i htought i did, i was stupid, i started "dating" in 8th grade, that was stupid to, the purpose of dating is to find someone to marry, i knew that wsaent going to happen in 8th grade, why nopt focus on things i lvoed to do, like ... eat... and write and play sports, ive told people i loved them when i didnt know what love was, im pretty sure i do now though, yall ask me about that if youwant to know, its a great story, rather sad to, its about something that happened at saga... yah... almost no more me, and i was sittin there praying about it, asking God to give me someone to help me, the next thign i know Kiva was around my waste huggin me, so, yeah, thats love, or the feeling i have for her is, so julie let me say im sorry, you where write, i shouldnt have given allthose poem to all those girls, it was stupid, i didnt feel for them like i thought i did. in my heart of hearts i knew i woudlnt merry any of them, specailly not katie... sorry, had to say it, now kiva is honestly special to me though, unlike the others, we have a connection, she pretty much saved my life, God used her to help me in some very serious ways, and i do love her, and i know i do, i love her as a friend, a best friend, and more, God is jsut really using her to help me along in my life, its cool though, becouse me and her have both made some mistakes in the past, and now we get to help eachother recover from them, we get to be there for eachother, pray for eachother, just, well be there for eachother, as i already said, its nice, so to my friends that i ditched while i was with someone, i appologize, its my fault and ill accept that, to the girls i dated, im sorry for wasting your time, and to kiva, well i love ya

sorry guys, say what you want, its how i feel though, ive done a lot of soul searchin and realized all of this