Why...
Why do I keep thinking about you...
Why do you keep obsessing my life...
Will I never find someone who'll become so special like you
How can I still have these feelings for you...
I try so hard to forget you...
But it seems impossible
What if I never find anyone else...
What if you were the one for me...
What if I let that moment slip through my hands all because of my stupid actions...
How come I can't win you back...
I want to give my everything...
Everything I own...
Every piece of time I have....
Just to win you back...
But I know I can't...
I screwed up...
Calling you names...
Just to cover up my broken heart from inside...
I couldn't help it...
I didn't want to look like a fool...
I wanted to be strong...
But instead of being strong...
I acted childless...
I sad a lot of bad things about you...
But I never actually meant any of them...
They were all lies...
I was just holding back the tears...
I don't know...
How to live on without you...
You are my everything...
Eventhough...
I kinda like someone else...
I still can't give you up...
It feels like I made the biggest mistake in my life... Ever...
If only I could turn back the hands of time...
Maybe we still would be together...
I could've been more gentle...
I could've shown more interest...
I could've wright my wrongs...
But I'm only human...
I know I can't turn back time...
But I want to...
I don't know why...
But my life feels empty without you...
I always thought that I was strong enough to keep up...
To live my life without you...
But I don't know if I can anymore...
What if you really were the one...
And I will never find some1 like you...
I'm scared...
Scared of living a life alone...
Scared of never loving again...
Scared of what will become of me...
Scared if I will ever find true life without you...
I don't know how you feel about me...
I don't know if you even think about me sometimes...
I don't know if you maybe even hate me...
I don't even know if you will read this...
I always though my future was set...
But now I don't even know what will become of me later
If you do read this...
I'm not beggin you to come back to me...
I respect your opinion and your actions...
And yes...
You prolly don't want anything to do with me...
And I understand that...
But this is just my way of saying...
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry for all the pain you've had to go through...
I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused
I never meant to hurt you
I never wanted to hurt you
And I never wanted you to get hurt...
I thought it was endlessly..
I thought we would be together forever...
But seeing as I was too foolish to let you go the first time...
I'm prolly not worth of you...
I'm prolly not worth of anyone the way I acted...
I should've fought for our love...
Everytime after we broke up...
I blamed myself...
I wanted to change myself...
And I did...
I changed bit by bit...
I changed everything that was wrong about me...
I changed everything that was bad about me...
I changed everything...
So I could be together with you again...
But everytime I see myself in the mirror...
I think that it's not enough...
I don't know why I think like this...
But I want to do everything...
Just to get you back...