i will not ever forget what i could have lost

[djmystk]

i don't feel good. i have a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. i make things worse than they are and i don't know why. i make myself hurt for no reason. i take things too personally. i let small things affect me too much. i cry for no reason. i'm happy one minute, crying the next. i was wearing your hat and i dropped it, then started crying. i literally cried at the drop of a hat! i'm disgusted with myself. i truly hope you're expecting me to be waiting for you when you get back...

...i will be.