*sigh* I hate doing this.
Especially when I've been trying to avoid the fighting since I first made my 'attack' post. Not strictly true, but somewhat true. Maybe only a little bit true
... Leaving my own thoughts on that description alone, I fully admit I was being dramatic and over the top and pissy about something small. I figured I would rant and be done with it, like I try to do lately, but that didn't happen, and instead, both omgwtflols and I turned it into much more than it should have been simply because neither of us refused to back down.
I fucking hate swallowing my pride and apologizing. There, I admitted it. Not that I've ever not admitted it before I refuse to take all the blame for spewing bullshit over everyone's flist... but I will apologize for being a dick, especially when it was unwarranted.
I will say this; I'm not accusing you of being a bully, Bastian, because that would be pretty tame bullying, but I REALLY dislike feeling bullied or backed into a corner. It has always made me lash out in unpleasant ways, and unfortunately, despite certain other things I've been through, that is the one area where I lack willpower/discipline/self control. I didn't have the means to rant at you about my annoyance, CONSIDERING you were tied up and unavailable, or we wouldn't have been in this mess. So I fucked up. I'm sorry.
And I won't even voice my thoughts on the rest of what happened. What's done is done.
Now if you'll all excuse me, I need a tissue.
... Leaving my own thoughts on that description alone, I fully admit I was being dramatic and over the top and pissy about something small. I figured I would rant and be done with it, like I try to do lately, but that didn't happen, and instead, both omgwtflols and I turned it into much more than it should have been simply because neither of us refused to back down.
I fucking hate swallowing my pride and apologizing. There, I admitted it. Not that I've ever not admitted it before I refuse to take all the blame for spewing bullshit over everyone's flist... but I will apologize for being a dick, especially when it was unwarranted.
I will say this; I'm not accusing you of being a bully, Bastian, because that would be pretty tame bullying, but I REALLY dislike feeling bullied or backed into a corner. It has always made me lash out in unpleasant ways, and unfortunately, despite certain other things I've been through, that is the one area where I lack willpower/discipline/self control. I didn't have the means to rant at you about my annoyance, CONSIDERING you were tied up and unavailable, or we wouldn't have been in this mess. So I fucked up. I'm sorry.
And I won't even voice my thoughts on the rest of what happened. What's done is done.
Now if you'll all excuse me, I need a tissue.