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She is crying in her swing now. I've been trying to get her down for almost 3 hours. She's exhausted because she got up at 4:30 this morning and only napped like an hour after that, then had a couple of 20 minute naps during the day, and that was it. She is only getting about a third of the sleep she needs and I get even less. I hate this so much. I am reading the No Cry Sleep Solution book, but even that book doesn't have any answers for if the baby won't go to sleep at all no matter what. My breasts ache. There's literally no more milk left in them right now. If she cries for a while, maybe she will sleep after that. This is everything I was afraid of about having a baby. She's grumpy and unpleasant and on the verge of a breakdown so much of the time right now and I'm sick and frantic with lack of sleep. Soi's never here, I never get a break, on the weekends I have to work and I end up even more exhausted on Monday with a whole week of single parenting ahead of me. I regret coming to this country and every decision I've made after that right now.