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I've been carrying around this guilt and remorse for two years.
I've asked for forgiveness.
I got the "it's ok", which is so arbitrary to me because I can't acheive closure or forgive myself until I hear thoes words themselves.
I think about it often and the thought of the tears that I was responsible to have evoked still kills me.
I was everything and so was she.
But I let her down on what was supossed to be the happiest day of her life.
Feels as though there aren't enough sorries in the world,
but here's one more,
I'm sorry.
... but this time, for so much more
I've asked for forgiveness.
I got the "it's ok", which is so arbitrary to me because I can't acheive closure or forgive myself until I hear thoes words themselves.
I think about it often and the thought of the tears that I was responsible to have evoked still kills me.
I was everything and so was she.
But I let her down on what was supossed to be the happiest day of her life.
Feels as though there aren't enough sorries in the world,
but here's one more,
I'm sorry.
... but this time, for so much more