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I have been having a lot of fun lately...probably too much. Work is still very stressful, but I am making so much fucking money and I really love the people I work with, so I am definetly going to stick around. I have started hanging out with my coworkers a lot more, and it has been a fucking blast. However, between working 4-5 nights a week and going out, drinking and partying until 4-5 in the morning 3-4 nights a week, I have not had a lot of time to focus on my schoolwork. Or any time. And I really don't care. I am so sick of classes and being in school. I have been in fucking school for far too long and I am just sick of it. My learning style is much more hands on, and academics have always and will continue to bore the shit out of me. I just can't get any motivation to do my school work. I really do think that it is time for a major change.
I have also decided that I need to get the fuck out of Maine ASAP. This state is so fucking dull, especially up here in the Bangor area. There is nothing to do and everything shuts down at like 9pm. As the days go by the chances that I will stay here for another two years and finish this program become smaller and smaller. Words cannot describe how much I hate it here. I don't know what I will do yet, but I do know that I am not yet ready to settle down in a career and that I do not want to finish this program. I am still young and irresponsible, and I want to be able to hang out with friends, go out, get wasted and stay up until sunrise for the time being. Because right now, that is the stuff I am really enjoying...the relationships I am building with people. The rest of it is just bullshit. I tried being responsible for the past couple of months and I was miserable. Fuck being responsible. I'm done with that. I'm giving hedonism another shot.
and fuck the angels
I have also decided that I need to get the fuck out of Maine ASAP. This state is so fucking dull, especially up here in the Bangor area. There is nothing to do and everything shuts down at like 9pm. As the days go by the chances that I will stay here for another two years and finish this program become smaller and smaller. Words cannot describe how much I hate it here. I don't know what I will do yet, but I do know that I am not yet ready to settle down in a career and that I do not want to finish this program. I am still young and irresponsible, and I want to be able to hang out with friends, go out, get wasted and stay up until sunrise for the time being. Because right now, that is the stuff I am really enjoying...the relationships I am building with people. The rest of it is just bullshit. I tried being responsible for the past couple of months and I was miserable. Fuck being responsible. I'm done with that. I'm giving hedonism another shot.
and fuck the angels