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Again I feel extremely sad.
But it is a part of a cycle throughout the day where I get very lonely, then get sad, then cry about it, then feel better until it starts over again.
I want to feel like I can be there for myself. Even now I'm spending my time trying to make other people happy and feel good. The problem with being there for other people is it creates a precedence and once you're not there, you take shit for it. I want to be able to get Jake time. I know I deserve better than this, but I just can't make it happen.
Too many people get hurt because of me when my intentions are good. Things are desperate enough right now it seems the only solution is avoid people...that way I can't bring them down.
Sigh...
But it is a part of a cycle throughout the day where I get very lonely, then get sad, then cry about it, then feel better until it starts over again.
I want to feel like I can be there for myself. Even now I'm spending my time trying to make other people happy and feel good. The problem with being there for other people is it creates a precedence and once you're not there, you take shit for it. I want to be able to get Jake time. I know I deserve better than this, but I just can't make it happen.
Too many people get hurt because of me when my intentions are good. Things are desperate enough right now it seems the only solution is avoid people...that way I can't bring them down.
Sigh...