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my family got a new dog. im kinda sad that its not my dog, and i wont see it grow. but i picked it out and everyone seems to love her. im seeing her this weekend.
im scared to go home this weekend for reason of me and terence. we broke up. a week ago. we just arent what each other need right now. there was no fighting, and it was calm. saturday it hit me and i had a mental breakdown. just because i dont know how not to be his girlfriend. ive dated him since 10th grade. i cant even remember what teachers i had in 10th grade. its such a habit and i im so dependent. i havent really spoken to him, because i dont know what to say to him. its hard to go from being someones girlfriend for four and a half years, to not.i feel kinda like i lost a best friend and i like im not supposed to talk to him. on the other hand, i dont know how to act or talk to him, and im so scared to see him.i dont even know what to say to him. im not upset about it really. it was a mutual agreement for the better. we both deceied we needed it. we had a good run.
i also decieded that i am most likely giong to stay in providence for school. if i can that is. if i do, im getting an apartment. either with racahel and kate, or mike, neil, tim, ryan, and dillion. or both. i hope we can get an 8 bedroom house.
i miss my friends from home. i miss rachael.
im at the library. and it usually makes me feel bad. its too quiet.
i need to do my homework.
im scared to go home this weekend for reason of me and terence. we broke up. a week ago. we just arent what each other need right now. there was no fighting, and it was calm. saturday it hit me and i had a mental breakdown. just because i dont know how not to be his girlfriend. ive dated him since 10th grade. i cant even remember what teachers i had in 10th grade. its such a habit and i im so dependent. i havent really spoken to him, because i dont know what to say to him. its hard to go from being someones girlfriend for four and a half years, to not.i feel kinda like i lost a best friend and i like im not supposed to talk to him. on the other hand, i dont know how to act or talk to him, and im so scared to see him.i dont even know what to say to him. im not upset about it really. it was a mutual agreement for the better. we both deceied we needed it. we had a good run.
i also decieded that i am most likely giong to stay in providence for school. if i can that is. if i do, im getting an apartment. either with racahel and kate, or mike, neil, tim, ryan, and dillion. or both. i hope we can get an 8 bedroom house.
i miss my friends from home. i miss rachael.
im at the library. and it usually makes me feel bad. its too quiet.
i need to do my homework.