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I don't know why I'm sad right now. Reading Heathers entry made me sad and made me cry a little bit. I'm scared that Chris is going to do the same thing. We have all these memories together and I don't know things aren't the same at all anymore. I sometimes wish this whole adult thing never came. Then it would be the way it used to be. I'm so scared that Chris is going to find me unattractive b/c I'm a fat hog. I really hate myself sometimes. Not only the way I look but the way I treat Chris sometimes. I'm just a stupid person. sometimes I guess. I don't know what to say.
Chris is coming over soon. Actually I think he's here now. So I'm going to go. Bye.
Betsy