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[dj_soy_milk]

living is indeed strange..
it is apparent to me now that everything i have been wanting to do isnt happening for me
for the soul purpose of having no control over them
i feel my fate is keeping me from doing certain things..and in essence, leading me to do the exact opposite
for what? this i am not sure of yet.

that shit i wanted to spend my money on
that person i wanted to see
those actions i wanted to do
all of these things i desire have a negative conotation to them, thus being more appealing to me
and my life, not by choice, but by some other force, guides me away from these things i want most
perhaps to protect me.
but whatever it is, it is, and is for a reason

i dont know why ive been sitting in my room 3 nights in a row
i didnt ask for it
but maybe its to keep me from you and all of that toxicity
i should be thankful

its a shame to waste all of this
i get ready just to boost my self esteem

Yay for jesus rising again 10 days later.
or whatever the fuck.


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