WHAT THE FUCK!!!
So in a series of events that occurred yesterday, only one really eats at me. Upon taking Jon home last night, after going to play DDR and pool at Mainstreet and then going to Jake's house to watch 3 Ninjas and eat Shrek ice cream, he told me something that sever ly irritated me. He said he went paint balling with the Parkers on saturday, but didn't really get to play because he locked his keys in his car. But before they all actually went Mr. Parker told Jon to invite some people to go, and even told him he could invite me... But also said that he wouldn't invite me himself because it might be strange. WHAT THE HELL! First off he doesn't have the nerve to even attempt to ask me himself and has Jon do it, and second he would put me into an uncomfortable situation where I could see his daughter, but not be able to interact with her in any way. Piece of shit... I would do anything to see Rachael, but to dangle her in front of me, practically just keeping her out of reach and knowing it just... just... makes me want to do harmful things to others. I feel like shit, hopefully my trip to Phoenix for Castles 'n' Coasters this wednesday will help.