It's over!

[dj_slimjim]

Or at least those are the words that came from Mrs. Parker's mouth over my cell phone. God my hands are shaking...My hearts beating wildly out of fear, confusion, and frustration...I can hardly breath...I know what I did wrong and I also know what we did wrong. I never should have put Rachael into this position. For once I thought that things were finally mending back together completely this time and for good, but I guess I was wrong. I can't blame Rachael for this happening, this is something I take complete blame for even though Rach happened to be there at the time.

Is this the price of love? Are we to suffer for what we want most? I would give anything or do anything to fix what I have shattered...I love Rachael more than anything in the world, for she is the world to me. I also love her more than I have ever loved anyone else and I say this without a doubt in my mind.

Plain and simple: I FUCKED UP!!!

GOD DAMMIT! "It's over!" keeps repeating itself in my head like a broken record not finishing the song in my life. It taunts and haunts me like a bad dream that I've been having for many nights in a row. I know the decisions I make are bad sometimes, but why does it seem like I am the only one who gets caught and suffers for them?

Suddenly only fear and anger are upon me...

I need to go for a walk...