Update Time!
So I have about thirty minutes to write about my last few weeks, and I've already had to push the backspace key five times. My thoughts are just spilling out all over the place!
Okay, Number One. I'm so in love with Ashley it hurts! AHHHHHH! I thought it was just lust, and I got to admit, everytime I think about her dancing in that club, my heart starts racing. *pant, pant* stop dancing, heart going too fast. I had this dream about her last night, where she was sitting with a guy I knew and he put his arms around her and held her. She had this content expression on her face. He leaned in and kissed her on the cheeck and she kissed him back. I was furious and I woke up pissed off. So yeah, I told Ashley that I didn't like her anymore, which is such a lie. I love her more than anyone else. Hurts, oh the pain. It would be so much easier if she didn't want anything to do with me or she hated me. Then I wouldn't be drawn like a moth to the flame. (Time to just cut this short)
Okay, Number Two. The test is coming up very soon, and then I will be getting my punk ass back in school! Hooray! I'm soo looking forward to it, I'm almost bursting at the seems. *Baker explodes* I feel like such an idiot for not getting this done sooner, but I had my reasons. They were good reasons, but I still feel rushed for time. I'm currently looking into everything college-wise. Like college placement tests and aptitude tests. I know all of these cost money, but I'm hoping I'll be able to get some good Financial Aid money, cause I'm independent and going to school while working a full-time job. Plus, I have my scholarships that my mom has been holding for me. Money that I will be using for tuition and books and such. Oooo, I'm soo excited. So many doors are bursting open. *Whole room explodes*
Okay, Number Three. Last, but not least, I'm leaving in less than a week. I have to go see my mom for christmas. It's actually something I want to do, but I hate being away from home and my family of friends. You are all the family that I have. My mom, for all the doctors say that we are related, isn't really part of my family anymore. When I needed her and when I depended on her to look out for me, then yeah, she was. But now! I'm free, and I have friends! OOooo, friends! Look at them sparkle! *friends shimmering in light*
Alright, well I have to rap this up cause I need to go to work. I'll be sure and spend some time here tonight to talk about my car and Bernard's wedding and all the other stuff that is going on right now. Smile, someone out there loves you.
Peace, Love, and Harmony
(and if you fuck with that, you get hurt)
Eric
Okay, Number One. I'm so in love with Ashley it hurts! AHHHHHH! I thought it was just lust, and I got to admit, everytime I think about her dancing in that club, my heart starts racing. *pant, pant* stop dancing, heart going too fast. I had this dream about her last night, where she was sitting with a guy I knew and he put his arms around her and held her. She had this content expression on her face. He leaned in and kissed her on the cheeck and she kissed him back. I was furious and I woke up pissed off. So yeah, I told Ashley that I didn't like her anymore, which is such a lie. I love her more than anyone else. Hurts, oh the pain. It would be so much easier if she didn't want anything to do with me or she hated me. Then I wouldn't be drawn like a moth to the flame. (Time to just cut this short)
Okay, Number Two. The test is coming up very soon, and then I will be getting my punk ass back in school! Hooray! I'm soo looking forward to it, I'm almost bursting at the seems. *Baker explodes* I feel like such an idiot for not getting this done sooner, but I had my reasons. They were good reasons, but I still feel rushed for time. I'm currently looking into everything college-wise. Like college placement tests and aptitude tests. I know all of these cost money, but I'm hoping I'll be able to get some good Financial Aid money, cause I'm independent and going to school while working a full-time job. Plus, I have my scholarships that my mom has been holding for me. Money that I will be using for tuition and books and such. Oooo, I'm soo excited. So many doors are bursting open. *Whole room explodes*
Okay, Number Three. Last, but not least, I'm leaving in less than a week. I have to go see my mom for christmas. It's actually something I want to do, but I hate being away from home and my family of friends. You are all the family that I have. My mom, for all the doctors say that we are related, isn't really part of my family anymore. When I needed her and when I depended on her to look out for me, then yeah, she was. But now! I'm free, and I have friends! OOooo, friends! Look at them sparkle! *friends shimmering in light*
Alright, well I have to rap this up cause I need to go to work. I'll be sure and spend some time here tonight to talk about my car and Bernard's wedding and all the other stuff that is going on right now. Smile, someone out there loves you.
Peace, Love, and Harmony
(and if you fuck with that, you get hurt)
Eric