Long dreary day
Seems like today should be crappy,...It's raining, I feel like shit, and I didn't get much sleep last night. I have been having very vivid nightmares for the past three nights. I hate bad dreams. Since Alysha left, sleeping has not been difficult, it's actually been pleasent. Not because of her, but without Tobyn in the room, I sleep ten times better. It's a shame, because I think a lot about what if. The biggest what if I think about is, what if I never married Nicole and got with Alysha before my son and her son were born? What if? I guess thats the great and mysterious thing about what if...you will never know the answer, I can only assume, things would have gone farther than they did. Anyway, I must lay down,...I feel sick...
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