college life gahh
yeh so college.. it's fine. nothing too exciting. basically: william & mary is not the place for me. it is tolerable, i could stay here for the next 4 years if need be. but the thing is, i think i deserve better than that. i think anyone in college deserves to be very happy and to feel comfortable where they are. i don't fit in here because i'm not a 110-pound blonde girl with a popped collar and vera bradley bag. but i did go through rush.. it was pretty exhausting and i know i'm not at all the typical sorority-type but i found one i really liked because they were all really eclectic and 'alternative'. so now i'm in ΑΧΩ (alpha chi omega) and i'm a pledge. it's pretty good, i've met two girls that i especially love: charmaine and virginia. char actually graduated from mason 3 years ago but i didn't know her because i wasn't there then. but i love her, we are like obsessed with each other. she said i was her 'rush crush' aww. hopefully alpha chi will help me to feel better here.
on the other hand i'm feeling really sick lately.. last friday i woke up and felt so sick. i lost my voice for a while and then i got really bad cramps. between monday and tuesday i went to 2 classes.. i just felt horrible. and that combined with my homesickness and not liking it here made me feel so helpless. i miss my parents so much, and i miss home like none other.. i need to be in a city! this colonial williamsburg shit does not cut it for me. i'm so bored and the whole place is so homogeneous. this weekend is parents' weekend. my parents are coming to visit and i'm so excited to finally see them. my mom just got back from switzerland a little while ago so it's nice to be able to talk to her again. i miss them so so much..
i guess i do have fun here.. my life doesn't suck, this just isn't what i wanted. i have a group of friends. none of them live in my building but i like them a lot. my best friends are danny and jeff, who are both actually from falls church and who i met during orientation. we eat at least one meal a day together, it's good, and we sit there for like an hour afterward talking about random shit. we have the same sense of humor so yay. and now they've decided to call themselves 'the jeff & danny experience, featuring jasmine' haha. then i know some of the people from their halls and all that. i haven't really meshed well with the people on my hall, so that's good. this girl adeela and i are really close, she's really sweet and neither of us are loving w&m. i do go out, but i feel like everyone at the parties is really ostentatious and i don't like that showiness. i went to the frats and they kind of grossed me out, between being dance-raped and feeling like i was watching a discovery channel special on mating. but last friday night was actually great - alpha chi had a social with a fraternity (delta phi) in this house where one of the guys lives. i pregamed with my mystagogue (mentor until we get our big sisters) jessi and some of her friends, which was all right. then we went to the house.. i was with char most of the time.. played some games that i don't know the name of and then went to the sorority house and had shots. then we went to another frat for not a long time and danny & jeff met me there with a friend who was visiting from vcu. i was drunk pretty much the whole time. then we went to a concert where all these indie-type bands played. well i actually only saw one but yeh. after that went to nadim's apartment and did random things. it was a good night..
classes are good. i'm taking biological anthropology, japanese, french, and the arab world through film (freshman seminar). they're all quite good. japanese isn't as hard as i thought it would be, at least not yet. and i love my seminar to death.
well i don't have much else to say.. it's late and i'm so tired. just talked to natalie which was great as always. i talk to caroline a lot too, i love staying in touch with my friends. i miss them so much.. anyway yeh so that's it.
on the other hand i'm feeling really sick lately.. last friday i woke up and felt so sick. i lost my voice for a while and then i got really bad cramps. between monday and tuesday i went to 2 classes.. i just felt horrible. and that combined with my homesickness and not liking it here made me feel so helpless. i miss my parents so much, and i miss home like none other.. i need to be in a city! this colonial williamsburg shit does not cut it for me. i'm so bored and the whole place is so homogeneous. this weekend is parents' weekend. my parents are coming to visit and i'm so excited to finally see them. my mom just got back from switzerland a little while ago so it's nice to be able to talk to her again. i miss them so so much..
i guess i do have fun here.. my life doesn't suck, this just isn't what i wanted. i have a group of friends. none of them live in my building but i like them a lot. my best friends are danny and jeff, who are both actually from falls church and who i met during orientation. we eat at least one meal a day together, it's good, and we sit there for like an hour afterward talking about random shit. we have the same sense of humor so yay. and now they've decided to call themselves 'the jeff & danny experience, featuring jasmine' haha. then i know some of the people from their halls and all that. i haven't really meshed well with the people on my hall, so that's good. this girl adeela and i are really close, she's really sweet and neither of us are loving w&m. i do go out, but i feel like everyone at the parties is really ostentatious and i don't like that showiness. i went to the frats and they kind of grossed me out, between being dance-raped and feeling like i was watching a discovery channel special on mating. but last friday night was actually great - alpha chi had a social with a fraternity (delta phi) in this house where one of the guys lives. i pregamed with my mystagogue (mentor until we get our big sisters) jessi and some of her friends, which was all right. then we went to the house.. i was with char most of the time.. played some games that i don't know the name of and then went to the sorority house and had shots. then we went to another frat for not a long time and danny & jeff met me there with a friend who was visiting from vcu. i was drunk pretty much the whole time. then we went to a concert where all these indie-type bands played. well i actually only saw one but yeh. after that went to nadim's apartment and did random things. it was a good night..
classes are good. i'm taking biological anthropology, japanese, french, and the arab world through film (freshman seminar). they're all quite good. japanese isn't as hard as i thought it would be, at least not yet. and i love my seminar to death.
well i don't have much else to say.. it's late and i'm so tired. just talked to natalie which was great as always. i talk to caroline a lot too, i love staying in touch with my friends. i miss them so much.. anyway yeh so that's it.