They can only do harm
I didn't get the Sous Chef position at cedar hills like I'd hoped for. Its a long simple story mainly saying that since there's been a small ammount of issues with coworkers that the store manager thinks that I wouldn't be able to handle managing 30+ people at a busy store.
I beg to differ, and I'd enjoy the challange of a faster paced work enviroment and being able to learn more and grown with the company, but it wasn't up to me, and there was nothing I could have done to change their minds.
The kicker is that if it weren't for this one "non-issue" then I would have gotten it. Isn't that about a bitch?
So with that I have to "change the way people preceive me, and adjust my attitude towards my coworkers" a bunch of crap to me, but I must do what I have to.
In other news, still working on music, I have now 6 songs "finished" and another 12+ started. I think this paycheck I'll be picking up a bass, and some pedals.
I have an appt with my buddy luke for my next tattoo, I'm excited.
I brought him a disk with 6 different folders with pictures of general concepts of tattoo's I want, and we flipped through a few, the dali melting pizza landscape he was really excited about, I also got to explain what I wanted to do with my lovecraft sleeve and he got really excited, the first one we'll be working on is the burroughs quote, I'm super stoaked.
I texted maddi a few weeks ago asking if her and I could sit down and talk, and that I had a few things I'd like to tell her, the initial response was defensive and kind of mean, but I think she's too curious to not want to see what it is I have to say, every week or so since I asked her I've gotten one or two texts, usually while she's at work, todays text being "did you still wanna talk"
I wonder if she's serious or if she's just "broken up" with clint like they do on and off, you know, long enough for him to fuck someone; and its ok cause he and maddi aren't "together" when it happens, then they make up and everythings ok again. Usually this is the only time I hear from her is when they're "not together" so she doesn't feel guilty talking to me.
Twisted isn't it? But if she's getting the abuse she needs from it to be ok with herself then fine, more power to your happiness, guess it just shows you that I couldn't give the abuse she needed.
I just need to tell her one thing, explain something I figured out recently. I guess I need my high fidelity moment. I want to be able to see her car, go to a club they're at, see something that reminds me of her and be ok with it, and not have my stomach jump into my throat. Itreally is the worst feeling.
The exima on my hands is not really improving, nor is it getting worse its kind of odd.
Meh, I lost my train of thought
I beg to differ, and I'd enjoy the challange of a faster paced work enviroment and being able to learn more and grown with the company, but it wasn't up to me, and there was nothing I could have done to change their minds.
The kicker is that if it weren't for this one "non-issue" then I would have gotten it. Isn't that about a bitch?
So with that I have to "change the way people preceive me, and adjust my attitude towards my coworkers" a bunch of crap to me, but I must do what I have to.
In other news, still working on music, I have now 6 songs "finished" and another 12+ started. I think this paycheck I'll be picking up a bass, and some pedals.
I have an appt with my buddy luke for my next tattoo, I'm excited.
I brought him a disk with 6 different folders with pictures of general concepts of tattoo's I want, and we flipped through a few, the dali melting pizza landscape he was really excited about, I also got to explain what I wanted to do with my lovecraft sleeve and he got really excited, the first one we'll be working on is the burroughs quote, I'm super stoaked.
I texted maddi a few weeks ago asking if her and I could sit down and talk, and that I had a few things I'd like to tell her, the initial response was defensive and kind of mean, but I think she's too curious to not want to see what it is I have to say, every week or so since I asked her I've gotten one or two texts, usually while she's at work, todays text being "did you still wanna talk"
I wonder if she's serious or if she's just "broken up" with clint like they do on and off, you know, long enough for him to fuck someone; and its ok cause he and maddi aren't "together" when it happens, then they make up and everythings ok again. Usually this is the only time I hear from her is when they're "not together" so she doesn't feel guilty talking to me.
Twisted isn't it? But if she's getting the abuse she needs from it to be ok with herself then fine, more power to your happiness, guess it just shows you that I couldn't give the abuse she needed.
I just need to tell her one thing, explain something I figured out recently. I guess I need my high fidelity moment. I want to be able to see her car, go to a club they're at, see something that reminds me of her and be ok with it, and not have my stomach jump into my throat. Itreally is the worst feeling.
The exima on my hands is not really improving, nor is it getting worse its kind of odd.
Meh, I lost my train of thought